Blackpill Oldcel copes of gf die with time

[Incline]

I been living in my fantasy world too much, watching too much hentai and living schizo fantasies in my head... I really think I have some severe mental illness I am unable to connect with other people, women especially, but I can't really connect with anybody. I spend half of my day literally living some fantasy scenarios in my head, I make friends with some autists then cut them off and never speak to them again, I haven't spoken to anyone from my university ever since I left. I cut all contact. I got no friends, nobody that meets me likes me, I get cold responses from everyone and I know I'm not wanted.

I study lately how people interact with one another, I study it very hard, observing all the behaviors of everyone around me, even some random people on the street. I feel like I'm literally a fucking alien, from a different world. I don't belong here tbh, I hate being in this world tbh, I don't relate to this world at all..

I think I will have to escortmaxx tbh, I will have to become just another of those old escortmaxxers. That is my fate I guess.

Maybe it's not such a bad thing, I got used to living with myself now I don't think I would even like living with a GF copium. Yeah idk anymore, guess I will just have to accept it is what it is. No point chasing a dream that will never happen.

 

[PLA1092]

Over for living-in-their-headcels. A thousand futures in your head that you'll never get to actually experience, and all because you're ugly.

 

[Incline]

Over for living-in-their-headcels. A thousand futures in your head that you'll never get to actually experience, and all because you're ugly.

IT'S BECAUSE I AM SERVING A LIFE SENTENCE IN MY GENETIC PRISON

 

[ElTruecel]

Mogs me

 

[M.Yass]

Are you LDARing?

 

[Epedaphic]

I can relate to being stuck in your head. I spend most of my day just pacing and imagining different scenarios of how my life could be or could've been, or of spending time with friends, teaching, raising kids, having a gf... In these fantasies I'm so well socialized and everything just flows so easily, but in real life interactions I feel (just like you said) like an alien from another planet who's just operating on a totally different wavelength. Like it's all just a larp. I can't feel connections with anyone or even to anything, even playing video games or reading books, I feel like I'm just going through the motions and don't feel any sense of connection to what I'm doing.

It's truly isolating and if the experience I described is anything like yours, I truly feel for you.