Officially my fourth decade of living a life with no success, no love, no joy. I woke up to have a married co worker txt me to brag about fucking a much younger customer who we get all the time, which made me not even want to get out of bed. Nobody, not even family, wished me a happy birthday. Just ended up watching top gun 1 and 2, and tried out some new quesadilla place in the area that was just disgusting and made me puke. Had a few beers and did some bars, and as per every drinking and pill session, cried myself to sleep wondering if I can handle one more decade of life like this.
40 motherfucking years, still sleeping alone, waking up alone, coming home to an empty apartment, going out to eat alone, traveling alone, running errands alone, doing movie binging alone. Could never self term but now more than ever just don't wanna continue living. To all you younger guys out there, I sincerely hope you don't end up like this. I'm a bitter fuck by nature, but this kind of loneliness is something I wish on no one. I don't know what lead me down this path as I was always a guy who had a heart and genuinely wanted to just do the whole married with kids routine, but somehow I just never succeeded. I live in an area where the majority of men are average at best and where the average woman isn't that picky because frankly they can't afford to be, but somehow, someway, there's a woman for every one of these guys, but not for me.
If any of you guys ever decide to play Mortal Kombat or whatever, by all means, right here. Not even gonna put up a fight, and you can take a rather sweet arsenal I occasionally used playing old school Super Nintendo fighting games in my younger years. Pretty sure anyone willing to take such a step would appreciate such a collection, but yea. Fuck my life and good night...
40 motherfucking years, still sleeping alone, waking up alone, coming home to an empty apartment, going out to eat alone, traveling alone, running errands alone, doing movie binging alone. Could never self term but now more than ever just don't wanna continue living. To all you younger guys out there, I sincerely hope you don't end up like this. I'm a bitter fuck by nature, but this kind of loneliness is something I wish on no one. I don't know what lead me down this path as I was always a guy who had a heart and genuinely wanted to just do the whole married with kids routine, but somehow I just never succeeded. I live in an area where the majority of men are average at best and where the average woman isn't that picky because frankly they can't afford to be, but somehow, someway, there's a woman for every one of these guys, but not for me.
If any of you guys ever decide to play Mortal Kombat or whatever, by all means, right here. Not even gonna put up a fight, and you can take a rather sweet arsenal I occasionally used playing old school Super Nintendo fighting games in my younger years. Pretty sure anyone willing to take such a step would appreciate such a collection, but yea. Fuck my life and good night...
