
TheLastandtheFirst
Recruit
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- Mar 5, 2023
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In my mid 20s.
I actually don’t even know if I really want a relationship tbh. I’m so used to having so much autonomy and feeling hurt that the idea of someone taking autonomy away from me horrifies me, because unless I really find a woman who loves who I am, I know I’ll just continue feeling hurt but with less energy and autonomy. I can’t imagine some normie relationships where the chick dictates what male friends he’s allowed to have or how much time he’s allowed to spend with other dudes (I’ve seen this happen to some friends who have broken off from me for exactly this reason).
And considering I’m entering through the gate of betabucks land and I got to never experience just innocent desire and developing sexually with a female friend in my youth, I am deep down still a hurt middle schooler, and I really feel like any relationship I have will just end up with some woman taking advantage of my inner hurt child and hurting him even more, along with the loss of time, energy, money, and autonomy.
I bet if I somehow found a chick who loved me who doesn’t annoy me I would be willing to give up that autonomy, but for the most part, nah.
I actually don’t even know if I really want a relationship tbh. I’m so used to having so much autonomy and feeling hurt that the idea of someone taking autonomy away from me horrifies me, because unless I really find a woman who loves who I am, I know I’ll just continue feeling hurt but with less energy and autonomy. I can’t imagine some normie relationships where the chick dictates what male friends he’s allowed to have or how much time he’s allowed to spend with other dudes (I’ve seen this happen to some friends who have broken off from me for exactly this reason).
And considering I’m entering through the gate of betabucks land and I got to never experience just innocent desire and developing sexually with a female friend in my youth, I am deep down still a hurt middle schooler, and I really feel like any relationship I have will just end up with some woman taking advantage of my inner hurt child and hurting him even more, along with the loss of time, energy, money, and autonomy.
I bet if I somehow found a chick who loved me who doesn’t annoy me I would be willing to give up that autonomy, but for the most part, nah.