Im 4 years away from being 30, I know how it feels, And the road to 40 from 30 is not very far, Its actually faster than 20 to 30, The speed is piling up, I just cant fathom what the fuck to do with my ailing mind, I can relate, I feel no one truly cares or have my back either, Its like we were born, Sent into this world with a broken mind, Brutal that our dads are this evil, If maybe our dads or moms would pull their shit together and help us in a meaningful way that means something for us, Then maybe we would have been further than we are now, But since they just popped us out and now were doomed, What keeps me occupied is the gym or gaming, I dont have anything else, Its just torment in my mind daily, Im going on a vacation soon to a warmer country but taking all that trucel baggage with me, Taking KHHV and the brain damage this world has spoonfed me makes nothing enjoyable anymore, My mind always race like yours, Ive tried watching the walking dead or some cool show and i just cant get into it, Instead the episode turns into me sitting there frightened and alone thinking about aging and the fact i never had teen love, The fact that wealthy pedophiles lives in mansions while im doomed to rot either wagecuck or on welfare because my mind is super fucked, I once got oxycontin by a doctor and my mind felt normal for a little bit, I think oxycontin would help many incels cope, For me that lacks dopamine or whatever due to ADHD i can never be normal, I cant even laugh at jokes presented to me, I lack the response to it.
And what your describing by having a dick as a joke, I feel the pain of not having a GF or intercourse, Its like we were born with a penetrative device on our body but its just for pissing, Never for cuddling or having sex with someone we love such as a loving GF, I just wish life were better, Filled with friends and a girlfriend, I walked home and saw a used condom on the road, Normies fuck everywhere and it reminded me of how much better off i would be if i was born a chad, Imagine chad getting to fuck and fuck everywhere, It sucks so much being inferior in looks and neurodivergent.
Imagine just being chad, Youd wake up, Go to sports practice and have fun with your friends then go home and bang your GF when you get home, Life is unreal and cruel man.