I am filled with genuine rage. I'm an autistic idiot who doesn't know anything, but one thing I do know is not fighting back against unfair circumstances makes me a fucking cuck.
There's numerous examples in my daily life in which I don't fight back against unfairness.
My little brother and I were home alone yesterday, he was watching TV, and I said something, and in response he said "Shut the fuck up, you're being annoying", the negro inside me wanted to fucking punch him in the mouth, but I was a pussy/or logical so I didn't physically attack him, but I didn't say anything either. I just didn't say anything back. I let my middle school little brother tell me to Shut the fuck up and like the good boy I didn't say anything back. Fucking cuck.
What the fuck is wrong with me? It's logical to not want to hit him because I don't want to just become the stereotypical black but I should have fucking said "No, you shut the fuck up", or something.
I'm a cuck against my Mom because she has me volunteering 5 days a week, multiple hours a day for my Mosque, and I'm such a fucking cuck that I comply and 5 days a week, multiple hours a week, and waste all of that time I could have spent studying or trying to figure out how to grow a youtube channel, or use all of that time for something that will benefit me, but because I'm scared to just say "Fuck it. I'm not doing it." I waste all of that time.. My Mom has taken me to take an allergy needle shot every single week, for over a year. I don't even have allergies and on some weeks, it's given me heart palpitations, and I know about all of the far right conspiracy theories, I don't want to take the shot, but like the good boy I am, every fucking week I take the shot. I should say I don't want to take the shot, and I don't want to do the fucking volunteering. My Mom shit talks me every fucking day in her native language to her relatives and to my Uncle, and I comply with what she says, making me more feminine and submissive.
My fucking 28 year old fat ass Uncle likes to talk shit to my face, and I just let him. Because I'm a fucking cuck.
In the context of my situation, the advice given to me from multiple different people was to hide. It was to delete my social media accounts, try to change my name, try to hide, try to not inconvenience this society. But that's being a fucking cuck, because why should I try to not inconvenience the society which treated me like fucking shit? It's unfair that I was a global humilation anyways. I shouldn't just move on, go on low profile and try to get a job because that's being a cuck. What about all of those millions of people who laughed at me? What about all of the girls who looked at me with fucking disgust and superiority? Viewing me as an inferior being? I should just ignore that and move on with my life?
The reason why I don't want to rot is because I view rotting as being a cuck. You had the ambitions or goals as a child, to grow up to be an Astronaut to a Doctor or some bullshit, but because society tore you down, because other people made fun of you for being ugly, because some fucking slut who gets fucking dicked down mocked you, you gave up on your dreams and jerk off in your room to hentai. If society supported you, if people were kind to you, then you might have done something with your life, but because of society, ugly people and marginalized individuals have to rot. It's being a cuck to society because like the inferior subhuman you are, you didn't want to inconvenience the unfair world, so you decided to not fight against society. Rotting isn't winning. MGTOW isn't winning, because it's surrendering. It's better to fight and be killed then surrender.
I don't want to be a fucking cuck starting today. Fuck my Mom. I refuse to take the fucking allergy shot, and I refuse to waste hours doing the volunteering I didn't want to do in the first place. Fuck my Uncle. If he wants to talk shit and start arguments, I'll fucking say I'm busy. Fuck my brother. If he wants to tell me to shut the fuck up, I'll tell him to shut the fuck up. And fuck society. I refuse to accept society's place for me in the social hierarchy.
Maybe it's cringe to think like this, because it's edgy. I agree in the fact that it's edgy, but I think that as an incel, it woudn't make sense to not be a bit edgy. What is there to fucking enjoy? Our lives are fucking shit, due to circumstances we couldn't even fucking control. We should be fucking angry. We should be pissed off at how unfair the world is. It's better to go ER then to rot. That's not even a joke. It's better to go ER then rot, because at least it's a form of resistance. It's a form of freedom fighting. It's not being a cuck to the society which fucking treated you like shit.
We can't make fucking friends because we're ugly, we can't even have fucking sex and reproduction which was the fucking goal of human existence.
The reason why I didn't leave to focus on ascension is because ascension alone isn't my goal. I wish society was changed. One of my desires is for all of you to ascend and not continue to live shit lives. I don't know why I have that desire, I'm not a fucking moral person and I won't pretend to be, by technical definition you're just strangers on the internet, but I hate that this world is so unfair and society is so trash that chance dictates your life and society's perception of you.
I think that's fucking bullshit. One thing I hate about myself is my fluctuating personality. One second I'm all serious and mad, like "What the fuck? My life is shit, the world is fucked. Let's get fucking serious. Let's fucking do something about it.", and the next second I'm goofy and making jokes and shit, like my life is fucking crumbling.
I need to train my brain to be serious and angry all of the time, I need to rewire my personality, because there's nothing fucking funny about my situation and the world. I can't be fucking joking around because my circumstances are shit. I need to tell my Mom to Fuck off. Not literally, but metaphorically. I need to display to my fucking faggot brother that I'm the fucking boss, and show society, that I'm not fucking hiding because the circumstances for going on the FitxFearless call was fucking unfair. I was mass pinged, told to lie about my age and make the first thing out of my mouth plastic surgery. Those fucking dickheads made it so my life went from shit to hell. I was fucking bullied all of my life, I live in a fucking stereotypical nigger family where the fucking Dad left, and I have a fucking single Mom. It's fucking pathetic as shit. It's fucking bullshit that I was redpill, I tried to succeed and it didn't fucking work.
I keep saying this shit then never take action, I keep telling myself "I won't joke around anymore", but I hope I fucking don't. I want to make a pact with myself that if I'm not serious for 1 second, if I fucking giggle or not acknowledge the seriousness of how shit society is and the situation I'm in, I should fucking slit my throat with a knife because there's no point in being a laughing idiot when society is collapsing, the world is unfair and my life was shit.
I hope you as the incel reading this doesn't just write this off as "Another Sasukecel Schizo rant" and can potentially try to understand what I'm saying, because everyone else is ignorant to living unfair lives, they had fucking friends and relationships, and you had nothing, and I had nothing.
My volunteering break is over, so I have to go back to Volunteering like a cuck. When this is over, I'm going to tell my Mom I'm not doing this bullshit anymore.
There's numerous examples in my daily life in which I don't fight back against unfairness.
My little brother and I were home alone yesterday, he was watching TV, and I said something, and in response he said "Shut the fuck up, you're being annoying", the negro inside me wanted to fucking punch him in the mouth, but I was a pussy/or logical so I didn't physically attack him, but I didn't say anything either. I just didn't say anything back. I let my middle school little brother tell me to Shut the fuck up and like the good boy I didn't say anything back. Fucking cuck.
What the fuck is wrong with me? It's logical to not want to hit him because I don't want to just become the stereotypical black but I should have fucking said "No, you shut the fuck up", or something.
I'm a cuck against my Mom because she has me volunteering 5 days a week, multiple hours a day for my Mosque, and I'm such a fucking cuck that I comply and 5 days a week, multiple hours a week, and waste all of that time I could have spent studying or trying to figure out how to grow a youtube channel, or use all of that time for something that will benefit me, but because I'm scared to just say "Fuck it. I'm not doing it." I waste all of that time.. My Mom has taken me to take an allergy needle shot every single week, for over a year. I don't even have allergies and on some weeks, it's given me heart palpitations, and I know about all of the far right conspiracy theories, I don't want to take the shot, but like the good boy I am, every fucking week I take the shot. I should say I don't want to take the shot, and I don't want to do the fucking volunteering. My Mom shit talks me every fucking day in her native language to her relatives and to my Uncle, and I comply with what she says, making me more feminine and submissive.
My fucking 28 year old fat ass Uncle likes to talk shit to my face, and I just let him. Because I'm a fucking cuck.
In the context of my situation, the advice given to me from multiple different people was to hide. It was to delete my social media accounts, try to change my name, try to hide, try to not inconvenience this society. But that's being a fucking cuck, because why should I try to not inconvenience the society which treated me like fucking shit? It's unfair that I was a global humilation anyways. I shouldn't just move on, go on low profile and try to get a job because that's being a cuck. What about all of those millions of people who laughed at me? What about all of the girls who looked at me with fucking disgust and superiority? Viewing me as an inferior being? I should just ignore that and move on with my life?
The reason why I don't want to rot is because I view rotting as being a cuck. You had the ambitions or goals as a child, to grow up to be an Astronaut to a Doctor or some bullshit, but because society tore you down, because other people made fun of you for being ugly, because some fucking slut who gets fucking dicked down mocked you, you gave up on your dreams and jerk off in your room to hentai. If society supported you, if people were kind to you, then you might have done something with your life, but because of society, ugly people and marginalized individuals have to rot. It's being a cuck to society because like the inferior subhuman you are, you didn't want to inconvenience the unfair world, so you decided to not fight against society. Rotting isn't winning. MGTOW isn't winning, because it's surrendering. It's better to fight and be killed then surrender.
I don't want to be a fucking cuck starting today. Fuck my Mom. I refuse to take the fucking allergy shot, and I refuse to waste hours doing the volunteering I didn't want to do in the first place. Fuck my Uncle. If he wants to talk shit and start arguments, I'll fucking say I'm busy. Fuck my brother. If he wants to tell me to shut the fuck up, I'll tell him to shut the fuck up. And fuck society. I refuse to accept society's place for me in the social hierarchy.
Maybe it's cringe to think like this, because it's edgy. I agree in the fact that it's edgy, but I think that as an incel, it woudn't make sense to not be a bit edgy. What is there to fucking enjoy? Our lives are fucking shit, due to circumstances we couldn't even fucking control. We should be fucking angry. We should be pissed off at how unfair the world is. It's better to go ER then to rot. That's not even a joke. It's better to go ER then rot, because at least it's a form of resistance. It's a form of freedom fighting. It's not being a cuck to the society which fucking treated you like shit.
We can't make fucking friends because we're ugly, we can't even have fucking sex and reproduction which was the fucking goal of human existence.
The reason why I didn't leave to focus on ascension is because ascension alone isn't my goal. I wish society was changed. One of my desires is for all of you to ascend and not continue to live shit lives. I don't know why I have that desire, I'm not a fucking moral person and I won't pretend to be, by technical definition you're just strangers on the internet, but I hate that this world is so unfair and society is so trash that chance dictates your life and society's perception of you.
I think that's fucking bullshit. One thing I hate about myself is my fluctuating personality. One second I'm all serious and mad, like "What the fuck? My life is shit, the world is fucked. Let's get fucking serious. Let's fucking do something about it.", and the next second I'm goofy and making jokes and shit, like my life is fucking crumbling.
I need to train my brain to be serious and angry all of the time, I need to rewire my personality, because there's nothing fucking funny about my situation and the world. I can't be fucking joking around because my circumstances are shit. I need to tell my Mom to Fuck off. Not literally, but metaphorically. I need to display to my fucking faggot brother that I'm the fucking boss, and show society, that I'm not fucking hiding because the circumstances for going on the FitxFearless call was fucking unfair. I was mass pinged, told to lie about my age and make the first thing out of my mouth plastic surgery. Those fucking dickheads made it so my life went from shit to hell. I was fucking bullied all of my life, I live in a fucking stereotypical nigger family where the fucking Dad left, and I have a fucking single Mom. It's fucking pathetic as shit. It's fucking bullshit that I was redpill, I tried to succeed and it didn't fucking work.
I keep saying this shit then never take action, I keep telling myself "I won't joke around anymore", but I hope I fucking don't. I want to make a pact with myself that if I'm not serious for 1 second, if I fucking giggle or not acknowledge the seriousness of how shit society is and the situation I'm in, I should fucking slit my throat with a knife because there's no point in being a laughing idiot when society is collapsing, the world is unfair and my life was shit.
I hope you as the incel reading this doesn't just write this off as "Another Sasukecel Schizo rant" and can potentially try to understand what I'm saying, because everyone else is ignorant to living unfair lives, they had fucking friends and relationships, and you had nothing, and I had nothing.
My volunteering break is over, so I have to go back to Volunteering like a cuck. When this is over, I'm going to tell my Mom I'm not doing this bullshit anymore.
