before becoming a hermit I've seen a lot of people ruin their lives in a aesthetically appealing or dramatic way.(like my ex high school classmate who travels through europe and smokes heroin,like a copy of Renton from Trainspotting).
There are people who turn their pain,death and suffering into a sick/alternative aesthetic but I'm just normal looking(except from not being goodlooking) with a slightly depressed face, and the possibilty of using pain to become [(original)] never existed for me because I hate attentions and avoid social interaction.
Other people,less flashy,tend to overdramatized their situation and they portrait their lives like "tragedies" and they seem almost heroic in their fights against existence, but sadly, even this is impossible for me because I don't have the right face, seeing me suffering isn't dramatic enough.(Danny De Vito and Woody Allen are always comical, even when life is fucking with them,bacause the tragic feeling is strictly related to the beauty of the characters).
basically I suck, my wasted life will be seen as nothing more than a bad joke.
There are people who turn their pain,death and suffering into a sick/alternative aesthetic but I'm just normal looking(except from not being goodlooking) with a slightly depressed face, and the possibilty of using pain to become [(original)] never existed for me because I hate attentions and avoid social interaction.
Other people,less flashy,tend to overdramatized their situation and they portrait their lives like "tragedies" and they seem almost heroic in their fights against existence, but sadly, even this is impossible for me because I don't have the right face, seeing me suffering isn't dramatic enough.(Danny De Vito and Woody Allen are always comical, even when life is fucking with them,bacause the tragic feeling is strictly related to the beauty of the characters).
basically I suck, my wasted life will be seen as nothing more than a bad joke.
