The fact that you will never perceive the world the normal way because of your mental illness is brutal as fuck.
I always thought that I was the only different person since I could not fit in with anyone, the average normie was repulsed by me and my behavior no one really wanted me to be their friend.
I was bullied constantly everywhere any new friends that I made as a kid ended up bullying or neglecting me and I never understood why.
I've never had a friend group as a child where the kids would not treat me like absolute garbage I still have no idea why but I know for a fact that I was mentally different than the other kids.
I probably did some weird autistic shit which even the kids could sense that there was something wrong with me so they bullied and most of the time neglected me since no one wanted to talk to me but to other NT kids.
I remember once going to play with other kids (we used to be in the kindergarten together so we knew each other) they would always yell at me when we played football and laugh whenever I had access to the ball.
Once that same kid who yelled at me when we played football wanted to tell the rest of the kids a secret and I went there to listen, but that NT kid told me to go away I was the only kid that was told to fuck off out of like 6 or 7 more kids so I stayed alone for like 10 minutes before deciding to head back home.
I always thought that I was the only different person since I could not fit in with anyone, the average normie was repulsed by me and my behavior no one really wanted me to be their friend.
I was bullied constantly everywhere any new friends that I made as a kid ended up bullying or neglecting me and I never understood why.
I've never had a friend group as a child where the kids would not treat me like absolute garbage I still have no idea why but I know for a fact that I was mentally different than the other kids.
I probably did some weird autistic shit which even the kids could sense that there was something wrong with me so they bullied and most of the time neglected me since no one wanted to talk to me but to other NT kids.
I remember once going to play with other kids (we used to be in the kindergarten together so we knew each other) they would always yell at me when we played football and laugh whenever I had access to the ball.
Once that same kid who yelled at me when we played football wanted to tell the rest of the kids a secret and I went there to listen, but that NT kid told me to go away I was the only kid that was told to fuck off out of like 6 or 7 more kids so I stayed alone for like 10 minutes before deciding to head back home.
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