TheSteal
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- Mar 22, 2023
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My friends from highschool or the ones who bothered to keep in contact with me have been talking to me and often tell me about how their lives are going. One of my friends said something that put me into a state of despair and sadness. My good friend who we will call J said that he had gotten a girl pregnant and how he's basically fucking succubi every weekend. Not only has he gotten a succubi pregnant hes about to marry her. In my earlier threads i've mentioned the succubi i had a crush on and how she was married to her chad husband the moment she turned 17.
I am here at 3:30 am posting a thread on this forum. wondering where it went wrong for me. This existential dread has been following me around since i was 16 now. It has grown to near unbearable levels to the point where i sometimes wonder what it's like to die. I can usually calm myself down and turn on youtube or something but slowly youtube has been getting to relatable to the point where YouTube is now spam recommending me Blackpill content, or rather niche stuff with less than 10k views. This isolation and loneliness is starting to eat away at me. I've been trying to make an effort to get out of my room more frequently (Not just for work but for errands blah blah) to the mall, but i just end up feeiing even more lonely and isolated. I see so many happy couples while i am out, smiling, happy, couples who are in love with each other, and i dont get to experience any of that because of factors outside of my control.
I am here at 3:30 am posting a thread on this forum. wondering where it went wrong for me. This existential dread has been following me around since i was 16 now. It has grown to near unbearable levels to the point where i sometimes wonder what it's like to die. I can usually calm myself down and turn on youtube or something but slowly youtube has been getting to relatable to the point where YouTube is now spam recommending me Blackpill content, or rather niche stuff with less than 10k views. This isolation and loneliness is starting to eat away at me. I've been trying to make an effort to get out of my room more frequently (Not just for work but for errands blah blah) to the mall, but i just end up feeiing even more lonely and isolated. I see so many happy couples while i am out, smiling, happy, couples who are in love with each other, and i dont get to experience any of that because of factors outside of my control.