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eldercelder
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This is a milder story from before I was blackpilled, but I was thinking about it the other day:
I used to have this neighbor lady. Her house was catty-corner to mine and she'd often walk her dog up and down. I didn't know her name or want anything to do with her, She was an aged roastie 50+. But every now and then, we'd cross paths. If I was parking on the street as she was walking by, I'd be polite, smile, say hello. She'd do the same. Just to be neighborly.
Anyway, one day I was on my porch smoking a cigarette and I saw her passing by. The houses aren't that far from the street, but far enough away that I wouldn't bother saying hello to her. It was only if I was right there on the street as she was walking by that I'd acknowledge her. So, I was planning to just ignore her, she didn't mean anything to me either way. But on this particular day, she went out of her way to glare at me and give me this nasty look as she walked by. It wasn't really a death glare. More like a cross between confusion and disgust and wanting to make it clear she didn't like me.
I didn't know what to make of this, so I did what I'd normally do. I waved and smiled and said hello. She kept giving me this confused/disgusted look without responding, so I said hello again, but she didn't reply, but kept staring.
I wondered, "What the fuck is her problem?"
The very next day a sign went up in front of her house: FOR SALE - SOLD. Evidently, her house was up for sale and she'd requested the realtor not advertise. But, upon selling, the realtor wants to bring in business so put up a SOLD sign so other people thinking of selling know about them. Point is, unbeknownst to me, on the day she gave me that disgusted look, she knew she'd never see me again, it's like she wanted to finally show me her true thoughts and feelings.
And it seemed odd to me then. I knew her as well as she knew me - barely at all. My thoughts and feelings toward her were completely neutral. I had no thoughts and opinions of her unless we crossed paths, and then it was hollow pleasantry. Didn't care about her either way, certainly not enough to want to give her a look of disgust. Yet, all that time she herself had much stronger feelings about me - feelings of hatred and she finally wanted to let me know.
Up until then, this ancient foid never occupied my mind. But apparently, all those times I was neutrally polite to her, she was seriously disgusted by my presence and existence. Even over a hello. Even after having no further interest in her. Even after not interacting with her anymore than that.
I just wanted to share. Even foids I don't even think about/care about feel compelled to make their hatred of me clear.
I used to have this neighbor lady. Her house was catty-corner to mine and she'd often walk her dog up and down. I didn't know her name or want anything to do with her, She was an aged roastie 50+. But every now and then, we'd cross paths. If I was parking on the street as she was walking by, I'd be polite, smile, say hello. She'd do the same. Just to be neighborly.
Anyway, one day I was on my porch smoking a cigarette and I saw her passing by. The houses aren't that far from the street, but far enough away that I wouldn't bother saying hello to her. It was only if I was right there on the street as she was walking by that I'd acknowledge her. So, I was planning to just ignore her, she didn't mean anything to me either way. But on this particular day, she went out of her way to glare at me and give me this nasty look as she walked by. It wasn't really a death glare. More like a cross between confusion and disgust and wanting to make it clear she didn't like me.
I didn't know what to make of this, so I did what I'd normally do. I waved and smiled and said hello. She kept giving me this confused/disgusted look without responding, so I said hello again, but she didn't reply, but kept staring.
I wondered, "What the fuck is her problem?"
The very next day a sign went up in front of her house: FOR SALE - SOLD. Evidently, her house was up for sale and she'd requested the realtor not advertise. But, upon selling, the realtor wants to bring in business so put up a SOLD sign so other people thinking of selling know about them. Point is, unbeknownst to me, on the day she gave me that disgusted look, she knew she'd never see me again, it's like she wanted to finally show me her true thoughts and feelings.
And it seemed odd to me then. I knew her as well as she knew me - barely at all. My thoughts and feelings toward her were completely neutral. I had no thoughts and opinions of her unless we crossed paths, and then it was hollow pleasantry. Didn't care about her either way, certainly not enough to want to give her a look of disgust. Yet, all that time she herself had much stronger feelings about me - feelings of hatred and she finally wanted to let me know.
Up until then, this ancient foid never occupied my mind. But apparently, all those times I was neutrally polite to her, she was seriously disgusted by my presence and existence. Even over a hello. Even after having no further interest in her. Even after not interacting with her anymore than that.
I just wanted to share. Even foids I don't even think about/care about feel compelled to make their hatred of me clear.