My (21M) Fiancé (20F) told me she isn’t attracted to my penis.
Earlier this morning my fiancé, while sitting on the couch, randomly asked me “what is the average penis size for males?” I looked at her strangely and told her it was like 5inches to 5 1/2 inches. She looked at me and asked me my size. I told her I’m 5 1/2 inches which is basically average. She literally looked in my lap and said “yeah, you’re an ok size.”
I looked at her very strangely with obvious pain in my face (more than likely) and asked her what she meant exactly by that. She just said bluntly “exactly what I said.”
I’m only admitting this because this is anonymous. I got up and went to the bathroom to vomit and balled my eyes out. After about an hour and a half I went to the bed and was still crying somehow. She came in maybe 20 minutes later and said she heard I was crying in the bathroom and asked me why I was still crying. I was honestly disgusted at this point that she knew I had been crying and didn’t bother to say a single word. I looked at her and just asked her plainly, “Are you attracted to my dick?” She looked me dead in the eyes and said “I’m not going to tell you I love it because I would be lying.” and just walked away.
I got up and left the apartment to cry in my car in a parking lot because I’m too embarrassed to keep crying in front of her. This topic had never even come up before, and I had never had her treat me coldly like this until this topic came up. Something we’ve never even talked about. She offered no attempt at consoling me, nothing. I feel disgusted with myself and frankly worthless right now. There’s nobody I have in this world to even talk to about this. I please be kind. This is the only place in the world I have to talk about this.
