All throughout my teens and early adulthood when family would call or come over they’d go straight into my white half brother’s room, they’d call and say hey where’s “half white brother at” “what’s he doing” never what i’m doing. It’s only after my mother starting complaining on why they never ask what i’m doing that they started saying hello.
Though when we did talk on the phone it was nothing more than a hey or i love you cuz i had no relationship with them and it was fake.
Never once have they invited me to smoke weed or drink with them or just hang out.
It’s like i don’t even exist, like i’m some retarded child who doesn’t know any better.
Then society expects me to be ok with all this “oh go spend time with family”
My brother even uses the excuse “oh sorry it’s just been so much” ok? You’re supposed to go through it together as a family.
I even overheard him saying his friend was the closest thing he had to a brother. Imagine how that made me feel. Like i don’t even exist.
Doesn’t help that i’m the only brown person in my family.
If i was never taken out of school i could’ve atleast had a chance at life.
Now here i am early 20’s. Everyone in my family has a bf/gf and or a kid, even my brother has a girl that says she wants to have a kid with him or supposedly already does but she’s lying.
I have no family, no friends, no relationship experience, no career, no license, no bank account. All i have are the tens of thousands of dollars i made online since i worked online since i was 13. That got ruined to so all i have left is a 9-5. I need a bank account to send the money over.
Oh but i’m supposed to reintegrate into society and be jolly and happy about it.
” Heyyy familyy, yall totally didn’t ruin my life and was never there for me, i love yyaall”
”Yeaahhh i got laid when I was 16 But she broke my dick doing cowgirl and i‘ve been celibate ever since”
LOL
Not even counting in all the fights, mistreatment, bullying, and stuff i’ve had to go through.
I wasn’t made to be in a family of druggies and smokers and have no ambition. I was more than that. My mother and family took that from me.
Though when we did talk on the phone it was nothing more than a hey or i love you cuz i had no relationship with them and it was fake.
Never once have they invited me to smoke weed or drink with them or just hang out.
It’s like i don’t even exist, like i’m some retarded child who doesn’t know any better.
Then society expects me to be ok with all this “oh go spend time with family”
My brother even uses the excuse “oh sorry it’s just been so much” ok? You’re supposed to go through it together as a family.
I even overheard him saying his friend was the closest thing he had to a brother. Imagine how that made me feel. Like i don’t even exist.
Doesn’t help that i’m the only brown person in my family.
If i was never taken out of school i could’ve atleast had a chance at life.
Now here i am early 20’s. Everyone in my family has a bf/gf and or a kid, even my brother has a girl that says she wants to have a kid with him or supposedly already does but she’s lying.
I have no family, no friends, no relationship experience, no career, no license, no bank account. All i have are the tens of thousands of dollars i made online since i worked online since i was 13. That got ruined to so all i have left is a 9-5. I need a bank account to send the money over.
Oh but i’m supposed to reintegrate into society and be jolly and happy about it.
” Heyyy familyy, yall totally didn’t ruin my life and was never there for me, i love yyaall”
”Yeaahhh i got laid when I was 16 But she broke my dick doing cowgirl and i‘ve been celibate ever since”
LOL
Not even counting in all the fights, mistreatment, bullying, and stuff i’ve had to go through.
I wasn’t made to be in a family of druggies and smokers and have no ambition. I was more than that. My mother and family took that from me.
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