For years I've had OCD in the sense of having strong feelings that something is awry -- the light switch is not off, the faucet is not off, the coffee maker is not off, the stove is not off, the door is not closed or locked, etc.
These distortions cannot be modified by "correcting thought processes," the central conceit of CBT. For I can visibly expose myself to what the reality is (e.g., the faucet is indeed off), but this doesn't stop me from feeling that it isn't (hence I've pressed down on the faucet until it has literally broken off).
This presents a problem for my CBT rapist, who is incentivized to ignore my OCD because according to the modality he's trained in and remunerated for, such a thing should not even be possible. It should not be possible for feelings to take precedence over thoughts when it comes to anxiety and how it manifests in OCD.
The incentive that my therapist has is to comport a flawed paradigm onto me, and this is easily accomplished because there is no oversight in therapy.
In this way, you can easily spend years having a therapist attempt to fit a square peg (CBT) into a round hole (you) just in order to keep the insurance money flowing
These distortions cannot be modified by "correcting thought processes," the central conceit of CBT. For I can visibly expose myself to what the reality is (e.g., the faucet is indeed off), but this doesn't stop me from feeling that it isn't (hence I've pressed down on the faucet until it has literally broken off).
This presents a problem for my CBT rapist, who is incentivized to ignore my OCD because according to the modality he's trained in and remunerated for, such a thing should not even be possible. It should not be possible for feelings to take precedence over thoughts when it comes to anxiety and how it manifests in OCD.
The incentive that my therapist has is to comport a flawed paradigm onto me, and this is easily accomplished because there is no oversight in therapy.
In this way, you can easily spend years having a therapist attempt to fit a square peg (CBT) into a round hole (you) just in order to keep the insurance money flowing
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