Blackpill My struggle with social rejection.

[Clownworldcell]

I struggle with fucking up friendships so the pursuit of a romantic relationship is always going to be out of reach for me so it’s something I don’t bother pursuing because I gave up on it due to how I knew I wasn’t going to get it. When I look back on my social struggles I recognise that a lot of it counts as social rejection.

I try to arrange for people to hang out and most people don’t seem to care or want to join me. I feel jealous of people who arrange for people to hang out and get the whole group to follow them like a pack of sheep. I kept my jealousy to myself when this guy told me he visited this other guys house. People never seem to want to come visit me at my house.

I feel guilty about fucking up every friend ship I ever had and wish I could go back in time to fix it up. It’s like people automatically like me less than everyone else in the social group after I fuck friend ships up and I feel miserable and jealous because I get the feeling that I’m the guy in the group that people like less than the other people in the group.

When I ruin friendships it’s unintentional because I’m socially challenged. People in the social group end up wanting to leave me or exclude me after I ruin friendships and it just causes me to struggle with feeling abandoned. People disaprove of me because they believe the worst about me and misunderstand them it causes them to make how they deal with me about content about me that is not true so it causes me to take offence to being dealt with the wrong way

 

[anon65]

I am the same way. I don't have the brain chemistry or social skills required to have many friends that like me. In fact, I have very few.

 

[Mokocchi]

You try to speak to others about something passionate to the self and you can just see them giving you the fluoride stare. Then someone attractive or female begins talking about some inane bullshit like how they went animal style at In-N-Out and suddenly they're listening as if they'd just proved the existence of God himself or something. Lookism and power dynamics rule every interaction ever, it's exhausting.

I wouldn't really blame the self for mucking things up. It's not your fault when you put forth an effort and no one really cares. I personally have never even had friends so there's that.

 

[killedmycel]

It takes so much out of me to maintain friendships being so ND that I already know they are not going to last very long when they start forming because I can only fraud being NT and "in" for so long until it becomes obvious I am an autist

 

[autisticsoy]

Same here man I have always a fear of ruining things and knowing how things usually go I say its well founded. Everytime I talked to someone new sooner or later they would wanna stop talking to me and try to avoid me, and sometimes just from seeing me for the first time