My life has always been boring. I wasnt bullied or anything in school or college but i wasnt also visible as well. I had crushes in high school on popular girls i never tried on them. Because ofc they were outof my league. Also i was from middle class indian family where my priorities were about getting a good college and then good job. I got a decent tier 1 college. But in college i just got distracted from my target. I had a crush this time i developed courage to ask her out. But as expected she lied to me on how she was more focused onto career. Ok fair i respected her choice only to see her with a guy fairer than me and better looking than me holding her hand. I was broken and shattered.
I started focusing on my studies still i couldnt get a job. But after being unemployed for a year after college my cousin got me a job which required me to sit at home to do work. Since then my social life is zero.i see reels about people marrying and cry to myself. About having a feeling of left alone. While having a job i am also preparing for better jobs. Of which i have failed miserably. Yet my parents have been supportive of me. Which now feels abnormal. Only reason i havent killed myself is because of my parents as they have no one other than me. If I off myself it will be cruel to them. As i couldnt take them to big international trips that they deserve. Only motivation for me is them atm. You may have ideological differences witj your parents. But at the end they are the only ones who will stand with you no matter the case.
I started focusing on my studies still i couldnt get a job. But after being unemployed for a year after college my cousin got me a job which required me to sit at home to do work. Since then my social life is zero.i see reels about people marrying and cry to myself. About having a feeling of left alone. While having a job i am also preparing for better jobs. Of which i have failed miserably. Yet my parents have been supportive of me. Which now feels abnormal. Only reason i havent killed myself is because of my parents as they have no one other than me. If I off myself it will be cruel to them. As i couldnt take them to big international trips that they deserve. Only motivation for me is them atm. You may have ideological differences witj your parents. But at the end they are the only ones who will stand with you no matter the case.
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