I often talk to my dad to find some comfort about why I am like I am and what's in my future and I always end up feeling more pissed off and hopeless nowadays because he tells me stuff like 'when I was 25 I wasn't married also' or 'all the other boys like you ended up becoming accountants and pharmacists and don't need to ask their dad for help' etc. basically deflecting all blame onto me for the fact that I am an incel outcast with no future anymore. It really pisses me off. It makes me want to stop existing but I also don't want to kill myself for these people. I just really hate my life. Yeah I fucked up but my parents did nothing to prevent me becoming an incel and actually encouraged it, now it's my fault that I didn't grow up normally. What the fuck do I actually do guys. I can't take this anymore. Nothing short of a fucking miracle will save me nowadays. And no miracle is coming obviously. What do I do.
