First of all, welcome back, I also spend a few months without posting and even entering the forums, since I don't post much I doubt anyone remembers me.
Thanks man, greta post tbh.
I can absolutely feel this feel, going to college and see all those 6/10 with a cute face and decent body I feel physical pain. The urge to hold them tight and smell their hair and skin is unreal, and it's even worse when I'm nofapping.
I already related my nofap try here, I actually managed to last FUCKING 4 MONTHS at it, because I bought that idea that porn destroys your brain and whatnot. But man, I simply CAN'T possibly do this type of shit, let alone here, surrounded by those absolutely perfect young German girls. I'll explode, something bad will happen. At the end of my 4 months nofap I was already feeling palpitations whenever I thought about women and sex. I'm too TARADO for this shit, kek.
It's truly a crime for a man to never experience life with a cute girlfriend, it hurts to think about I already lost the race back in high school because of bullying, autism and uglyness, but now on college having to see those beauties everyday. I can't really describe with words what is this enfuriating yet frustrating feeling. The thing is, I'm getting old, it is already a taboo for me too go after high school girls even if it's legal here, and in a few years it will be taboo for the college age girls too. I fucking hate myself so much, tried to change multiple times but I'm just damaged psychologically and physically, I don't think I'll ever have normalfag views on women again, it's not like it would work anyway, since manletism, poor bone development and all of that.
I used to feel ultra-butthurt about all that AoC shit, but tbh, 1)it doesn't matter as a truecel and 2) most people are just hypocrites, of course a gorgeous 14yo with smooth skin and hair, super quality eggs, perky, firm tits and a cute neotenous face is superior to some 30yo old whore, EVERYONE ON THE PLANET CAN RECOGNIZE THIS FACT, but people are just too butthurt and hypocritical, especially women.
I'll just hope based Bolsonaro wins so I can buy a DOZE and shoot myself in the head.
Don't do it though, the Demiurge will just punish your spirit relentlessly for that and then incarnate you again as some fucked up poor-ass Chinese, African or something.
I hope Bolsonaro wins too, tbh. Brazil is too extreme with criminality, we are too far gone and now a bloodbath with the criminals is the only way. Without it we'll because Honduras tier within the next years.
This is what absolutely baffles me about this country, if you're not a massive neurotypical normalfag, the HR won't hire you at all. There was this Chad who was on college with me, which I considered a friend back in the day but later I found out he only befriended me so we can do group projects, since I'm a almost-high IQ fag and too beta to ask him to do his fucking job. Anyway, he was as dumb as a rock, didn't know how to program basic HTML shit you learn in the first semester, he got a internship in the third semester, full time job at the fifth semester as a developer, he got fired a year later, and when I asked why, he just said "nah breh I didnt know how to do any of that shit", same words same slangs but in portuguese.
Brazil is 100% shit for work as an incel, thanks for giving me the daily reminder of it. I fucking hate those HR sluts man.
He presented me to a girl who worked with him but her look of disgust and body language made it clear that nothing would ever happen, and since Chads are oblivious to rejection he didn't picked up his signs. Shame she was a qt.
It feels so shitty to get to know a cute girl and see that she feels indiferent/repulsed by you because you're ugly. The same happened to me with that girl from the beach.
Just fuck this life man, I'm too frustrated to do anything about it, not enough reason to care at all, thinking about bbq in the bathroom all day, but I have two small dogs and it's a small house, so they could get harmed in the process. I just need some fucking help man, but this country is full of self absorved people who won't do shit if it doesn't direct benefits them, even my only family (brother and mom), don't care at all. I'm really tired.
The two things holding me back from suicide are my attachment to some things like my body and my family and cops and the belief that I'll probably just reincarnate even worse, it's very possible. I'm 100% sure this world is hell upon emigrating, there's no place that will make human condition of suffering and toil go away.
It's a bad idea to come to germany. People do not wanna be around you if you are ugly and making friends is impossible.
Truth. I don't think I'm staying forever, like I said.
You should go out and burn some shit with your fellow migrants. Maybe you will get the chance to choke out an Asuka unfortunate enough to cross your path. Or just keep wage cucking it, whatever.
I would totally be your friend IRL.
How do you cope besides posting on forums? @Mainländer
Nowadays, Gnosis, fapping, playing MOEMON like no tomorrow and talking to myself. I already did that in Brazil but now I feel so lonely, in my last work I started to talked a lot of fucked up shit to myself in Portuguese in the pension's bathroom, I'm going a little crazy tbh, not violently crazy though @BKA
i really thought maybe germany was a chance for ethnics ffs
Not at all bro. Only if your plan is running rapefugee game.
The whole migrant crisis was just too much for this country.(Social and economic aspects) I'll get my degree and then I'll escape from Merkel's bizarre adventure
Where are you going to, Senpai? Let's go to UK together, shit would be cool.
Youre lucky... I think the life standard must compensate the everyday suffering with girls.
Btw where do you used to live in Br? I find it hard that you couldn't run the JBW game here. Even the simple mention that you are a german could rend you hundreds of green card diggers.
South Brazil, but in a shitty city. JBW doesn't work without blue eyes in Brazil, also being German without the accent and without the EUROS is useless as well. Already tried that game.