It's also a combination of muh depreshun and other things, but still. My brain feels numb and fried.
It's like there's no excitement, surprise or mystery in anything. It's not like I think I'm too smart or knowledgeable, but it's like everything is sort of predictable or just lackluster.
Idk I'm so braindead I can't even explain it properly. It's like I have no dopamine, it's like my brain isn't properly registering anything. My thoughts, emotions - everything feels numb, even my brain feels physically numb and clouded. I wade through life barely using any mental power, never actually thinking or able to put any effort into something.
It really feels like I'm a sort of zombie of my former self, though idk when my former self died. Was it when my depression started? But that was too long ago, when I was ~13. Was it when I was an alcoholic? Yeah that's probably it, way too much horrible shit happened during those 2 years, left me not only mentally but physically scarred for life.
It's like there's no excitement, surprise or mystery in anything. It's not like I think I'm too smart or knowledgeable, but it's like everything is sort of predictable or just lackluster.
Idk I'm so braindead I can't even explain it properly. It's like I have no dopamine, it's like my brain isn't properly registering anything. My thoughts, emotions - everything feels numb, even my brain feels physically numb and clouded. I wade through life barely using any mental power, never actually thinking or able to put any effort into something.
It really feels like I'm a sort of zombie of my former self, though idk when my former self died. Was it when my depression started? But that was too long ago, when I was ~13. Was it when I was an alcoholic? Yeah that's probably it, way too much horrible shit happened during those 2 years, left me not only mentally but physically scarred for life.
