Blackpill My looks are unremarkable, but my neurodivergence bothers me most.

[Genetically Doomed]

My neurodivergence was almost mild as a kid. In fact, it was still manageable. I was just a normie who was eccentric. I had quirks, but i otherwise was just like my peers. As I got older, my neurodivergence got far worse in adolescence and especially young adulthood. In my late 20s, it's the worst it's ever been!

I can't even break out of my routine i'm trapped in. During free time, i have rituals in my head sometimes for an hour pacing and thinking. i can't stop fucking thinking. i even get distracted while listening to music! I often pace in my room and cannot sit still while on my computer for 5 minutes without needing to pace. I'm NEET. I got a part time job a couple years after getting a college degree but it took 2 years to get a part time entry level job and i got fired in 2 months because i couldn't put things on shelves in a short period of time and multiple stacks of items had to be emptied within a couple hours. I got distracted in my mind a lot. Now I'm NEET again and i was fired a month and a half ago. It still feels like 2 weeks ago! Life keeps going by fast and i'm short-term oriented about my goals and cannot plan long term goals but i develop too slowly as a person.

I have autism, adhd and ocd all at the same time. try living with that. without these disorders together, i could've been employed full time, had a degree earlier in life and would've been living on my own and probably engaged at this point! now, everyday is the same. Even on weekends i'm trapped in my routine and i can't go to bed any earlier than 4 at this point! it's insanity!

 

[Genetically Doomed]

@ordinaryotaku

 

[BasedGoyslopReviews]

i can somewhat relate
i had 1 friend in the past decade
and if i have 1 place i need to be, like an appointment, per week, its too much. I get apprehensive about going anywhere like 2 weeks before it happens
i also basically at one point started pretending like im not in university, i didnt even officially withdraw, i let them cut me off after not reaching me via calls/emails. i just wanted all those ppl and places out of my mind for good, without needing to officially go there and withstand judgemental eyes and sign and print fucking forms. I was suicidal in university years, its where my mental finally gave up. same for part time job. idk what manner of mental retardation that is but here we are

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I can't even break out of my routine i'm trapped in. During free time, i have rituals in my head sometimes for an hour pacing and thinking. i can't stop fucking thinking. i even get distracted while listening to music! I often pace in my room and cannot sit still while on my computer for 5 minutes without needing to pace.

I'm similar in this regard, which is honestly unbearable, as I feel compelled to do this sometimes; otherwise, I simply cannot focus on other matters. This has also been worsening due to the miserable state of my life, and because of all the things I know I missed out on — as that fills me with stress.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I get apprehensive about going anywhere like 2 weeks before it happens

Same

 

[Genetically Doomed]

I'm similar in this regard, which is honestly unbearable, as I feel compelled to do this sometimes; otherwise, I simply cannot focus on other matters. This has also been worsening due to the miserable state of my life, and because of all the things I know I missed out on — as that fills me with stress.

Do you have autism ocd or adhd

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Do you have autism ocd or adhd

Not diagnosed with anything.

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

Brutal. OCD, autism and adhd together are a deadly combination. I had OCD as kid, I suspect have symptoms of the other two but I was not diagnosed because I never went to a doctor again. OCD alone is enough to ruin your life, even for otherwise successful people, and the other two will surely make you a dysfunctional loser in every aspect of life. So you end up unsuccessful and unhappy, when because of the OCD you would also be unhappy if you were successful! All of them together is just too brutal to live.

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Brutal. OCD, autism and adhd together are a deadly combination. I had OCD as kid, I suspect have symptoms of the other two but I was not diagnosed because I never went to a doctor again. OCD alone is enough to ruin your life, even for otherwise successful people, and the other two will surely make you a dysfunctional loser in every aspect of life. So you end up unsuccessful and unhappy, when because of the OCD you would also be unhappy if you were successful! All of them together is just too brutal to live.

I think many here have some kind of autistic traits

 

[torturedsubject]

I definitely have autism, probably adhd too. I can’t focus for shit and had to drop out of college twice.

 

[Genetically Doomed]

I definitely have autism, probably adhd too. I can’t focus for shit and had to drop out of college twice.

I have autism adhd and ocd so I cannot function period

 

[andrej]

Reletable

 

[Trident]

Same life

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Reletable

do you have autism, adhd and ocd?

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Same life

you have autism, adhd and ocd?

 

[Dead End]

I'm the opposite. I'm ugly but without any mental disorders.

 

[Genetically Doomed]

I'm the opposite. I'm ugly but without any mental disorders.

you probably have autism.

 

[Dead End]

you probably have autism.

Why? Is it because you believe most people using this forum are autistic?

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Why? Is it because you believe most people using this forum are autistic?

yes or they have autistic traits.

 

[Dead End]

yes or they have autistic traits.

Yes, but I'd still consider myself to be NT on an individual level regardless of whether the average .is user is autistic or not.

 

[GloomyGhoul]

My neurodivergence was almost mild as a kid. In fact, it was still manageable. I was just a normie who was eccentric. I had quirks, but i otherwise was just like my peers. As I got older, my neurodivergence got far worse in adolescence and especially young adulthood. In my late 20s, it's the worst it's ever been!

I can't even break out of my routine i'm trapped in. During free time, i have rituals in my head sometimes for an hour pacing and thinking. i can't stop fucking thinking. i even get distracted while listening to music! I often pace in my room and cannot sit still while on my computer for 5 minutes without needing to pace. I'm NEET. I got a part time job a couple years after getting a college degree but it took 2 years to get a part time entry level job and i got fired in 2 months because i couldn't put things on shelves in a short period of time and multiple stacks of items had to be emptied within a couple hours. I got distracted in my mind a lot. Now I'm NEET again and i was fired a month and a half ago. It still feels like 2 weeks ago! Life keeps going by fast and i'm short-term oriented about my goals and cannot plan long term goals but i develop too slowly as a person.

I have autism, adhd and ocd all at the same time. try living with that. without these disorders together, i could've been employed full time, had a degree earlier in life and would've been living on my own and probably engaged at this point! now, everyday is the same. Even on weekends i'm trapped in my routine and i can't go to bed any earlier than 4 at this point! it's insanity!

I have body dysmorphia and schizophrenia. So I’m fucked either way.

 

[Erenincel]

My neurodivergence was almost mild as a kid. In fact, it was still manageable. I was just a normie who was eccentric. I had quirks, but i otherwise was just like my peers. As I got older, my neurodivergence got far worse in adolescence and especially young adulthood. In my late 20s, it's the worst it's ever been!

I can't even break out of my routine i'm trapped in. During free time, i have rituals in my head sometimes for an hour pacing and thinking. i can't stop fucking thinking. i even get distracted while listening to music! I often pace in my room and cannot sit still while on my computer for 5 minutes without needing to pace. I'm NEET. I got a part time job a couple years after getting a college degree but it took 2 years to get a part time entry level job and i got fired in 2 months because i couldn't put things on shelves in a short period of time and multiple stacks of items had to be emptied within a couple hours. I got distracted in my mind a lot. Now I'm NEET again and i was fired a month and a half ago. It still feels like 2 weeks ago! Life keeps going by fast and i'm short-term oriented about my goals and cannot plan long term goals but i develop too slowly as a person.

I have autism, adhd and ocd all at the same time. try living with that. without these disorders together, i could've been employed full time, had a degree earlier in life and would've been living on my own and probably engaged at this point! now, everyday is the same. Even on weekends i'm trapped in my routine and i can't go to bed any earlier than 4 at this point! it's insanity!

Bro I read you are in vicious cycle called Executive dysfunction loop. Idk how to fix this but it fixeble. Terapy don't fix your inceldom but this can be fixed on therapy and learning time management.

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Bro I read you are in vicious cycle called Executive dysfunction loop. Idk how to fix this but it fixeble. Terapy don't fix your inceldom but this can be fixed on therapy and learning time management.

I already had enough therapy. I’m still working on doing what I learned

 

[andrej]

you have autism, adhd and ocd?

Yes excluding adhd

 

[Genetically Doomed]

Yes excluding adhd

Comorbidities amplify your other disorders

 

[Vermilion Demon]

Hardcore relate.

 

[autisticsoy]

Like reading a page of illnesses i can relate

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Extremely relatable to me. My neurodivergence is getting worse day by day, it completely paralyzed me mentally, I m loosing my basic ability to do function in society. Fearful stimuli, OCD, ADHD are killing over me