my loneliness is killing me

[CaptainRussia]

i have been lonely for most of my life. exceptions were short periods of cope.i see all my life passing by, while im sitting here caged in this body. unable to escape. undeserving of love and affection, human like treatment from others or happiness. it has to end or im gonna snap. theres not much life in me left.

 

[Deleted member 126]

 

[SchrodingersDick]

 

[Demir]

 

[Villain]

 

[Swiswis]

Nice

 

[CaptainRussia]

videogames have not been fun to me for a long time. everything i do is forced. nothing is fun. i hardly get out of bed in the morning. i want to die.

 

[retarded_dumbshit]

same. ill get a bittersweet pain in my heart when contemplating how lonely i am. if the feelings are too strong, the feeling will travel all the way to my arm and sometimes even to my ring finger.

i just need to BEE myself

 

[CaptainRussia]

same. ill get a bittersweet pain in my heart when contemplating how lonely i am. if the feelings are too strong, the feeling will travel all the way to my arm and sometimes even to my ring finger.

i just need to BEE myself

i used to be a happy kid, but then the bullying started. im dead inside. robotic. i cannot laugh. i can't even cry. im just trying to hold on to get to the weekend, as if this would change anything. the weekend comes and all my attempts to socialize get stomped on. no messages, no returned calls, no nothing. then i try to survive to the next weekend. this has to end. im too old to get back my youth and im too crippled to continue.

 

[retarded_dumbshit]

i used to be a happy kid, but then the bullying started. im dead inside. robotic. i cannot laugh. i can't even cry. im just trying to hold on to get to the weekend, as if this would change anything. the weekend comes and all my attempts to socialize get stomped on. no messages, no returned calls, no nothing. then i try to survive to the next weekend. this has to end. im too old to get back my youth and im too crippled to continue.

if you truly believe you can no longer go on, you should embrace your loneliness and adopt stoicism. much easier said than done, but it's much better than the alternative.

 

[Deleted member 11318]

That's your own fault, Bro. You should have thought about all that before you decided to be born ugly.

 

[Erenor]

i have been lonely for most of my life. exceptions were short periods of cope.i see all my life passing by, while im sitting here caged in this body. unable to escape. undeserving of love and affection, human like treatment from others or happiness. it has to end or im gonna snap. theres not much life in me left.

Have you tried going to a psychologist? Seems to me that on top of your objective problems you are severly depressed. In this case it is hard for us to help you, just through a comment over the internet. I strongly would recommend to try seeing a psychologist, of course it can't change your past, and your life won't suddenly be amazing and pure happiness, but if you find the right kind of therapist/therapy and if necessary medication it definitely can make you feel much better and give you back hope and will to live. PM me if you want

 

[Insomniac]

Same bro. The only friend I have is my cat.

 

[LDARBuddah]

That's your own fault, Bro. You should have thought about all that before you decided to be born ugly.

This

Also it is over

 

[Deleted member 1410]

you beat me to it.

 

[CaptainRussia]

Have you tried going to a psychologist? Seems to me that on top of your objective problems you are severly depressed. In this case it is hard for us to help you, just through a comment over the internet. I strongly would recommend to try seeing a psychologist, of course it can't change your past, and your life won't suddenly be amazing and pure happiness, but if you find the right kind of therapist/therapy and if necessary medication it definitely can make you feel much better and give you back hope and will to live. PM me if you want

i have been to therapy before. before the blackpill. i was sent to a manhating cunt. her waitingroom was full of books like "it doesn't always work out with the first man". first session she said i look like a "stehriese" a "stand giant". this is someone who seems short when he sits, but tall when he stands, because his legs are unproportionatly long. thats a sign of low t. (i'm 5'8.5 and my tesosterone is right about average) second session she said my voice sounds off, that i should get that fixed, that my voice is probably the reson people avoid me and that i ave a strong russian accent. i have absolutely zero accent (i speak russian with a german accent). after a few more session i stopped going there. she fed me new insecurities and whenever i tried to steer the conversation towards bullying, she found something new about my appearance to steer the conversation too.

back in the day i was oblivious to beeing ugly. i thought its all about personality and couldn't figure out why people treat me like crap, why they pick on me, why they humiliate me, while i was funny, full of joy and treated other people well. when i got older the urge to find a partner became so strong that i "put myself out there", just to get assblasted by the opposite sex brutaly. it hit me like a ton of bricks, that its not about personality. its looks. all the outcasts were weak and ugly. the most popular guys were tanned tall sunnyboys. im on my way to 30 and i have not lived. i have always waited to bloom. im getting old now. when i am with relatives i sometimes recall experiences we made during childhood and they are like wow you still remember that. i remember that because i have just a handful of experiences like that and i harness them like treasures. i spent all my life isolated, tryharding to get someone to like me. my whole youth passed by me and i never even went to club.

i think i will give therapy one last shot. if this won't fix my loneliness, i'm out.

 

[micropenis29]

Rub one out. Take a nap. Order a pizza, have a few beers, listen to good music, watch a good movie, buy a new video game. Do something to snap out of it.

Good luck.

 

[JovanD]

This version is better

 

[CaptainRussia]

Rub one out. Take a nap. Order a pizza, have a few beers, listen to good music, watch a good movie. Do something to snap out of it.

Good luck.

no libido. i haven't watched porn for months.

 

[SchrodingersDick]

i have been to therapy before. before the blackpill. i was sent to a manhating cunt. her waitingroom was full of books like "it doesn't always work out with the first man". first session she said i look like a "stehriese" a "stand giant". this is someone who seems short when he sits, but tall when he stands, because his legs are unproportionatly long. thats a sign of low t. (i'm 5'8.5 and my tesosterone is right about average) second session she said my voice sounds off, that i should get that fixed, that my voice is probably the reson people avoid me and that i ave a strong russian accent. i have absolutely zero accent (i speak russian with a german accent). after a few more session i stopped going there. she fed me new insecurities and whenever i tried to steer the conversation towards bullying, she found something new about my appearance to steer the conversation too.

back in the day i was oblivious to beeing ugly. i thought its all about personality and couldn't figure out why people treat me like crap, why they pick on me, why they humiliate me, while i was funny, full of joy and treated other people well. when i got older the urge to find a partner became so strong that i "put myself out there", just to get assblasted by the opposite sex brutaly. it hit me like a wall of bricks, that its not about personality. its looks. all the outcasts were weak and ugly. the most popular guys were tanned tall sunnyboys. im on my way to 30 and i have not lived. i have always waited to bloom. im getting old now. when i am with relatives i sometimes recall experiences we made during childhood and they are like wow you still remember that. i remember that because i have just a handful of experiences like that and i harness them like treasures. i spent all my life isolated, tryharding to get someone to like me. my whole youth passed by me and i never even went to club.

i think i will give therapy one last shot. if this won't fix my loneliness, i'm out.

Foid psychologists are the biggest joke on this planet. Not only are they “experts” in a mythical discipline that doesn’t even exist, but they’re incapable of understanding the plights of others. It goes counter to their inherent nature, sympathizing with others is not a part of the foid’s psyche. It doesn’t compute with them.. it’s like paying a fish to teach you quantum mechanics. And every foid thinks she’s “intuitive” and “spiritual” and think they’re experts at everything because the have holes that guys wants to fuck...

no libido. i haven't watched porn for months.

Get on test/DHT ASAP!

 

[CaptainRussia]

Get on test/DHT ASAP!

i got my testosterone checked 658. perfect average. its depression that is killing my libido. not t.

 

[Erenor]

i have been to therapy before. before the blackpill. i was sent to a manhating cunt. her waitingroom was full of books like "it doesn't always work out with the first man". first session she said i look like a "stehriese" a "stand giant". this is someone who seems short when he sits, but tall when he stands, because his legs are unproportionatly long. thats a sign of low t. (i'm 5'8.5 and my tesosterone is right about average) second session she said my voice sounds off, that i should get that fixed, that my voice is probably the reson people avoid me and that i ave a strong russian accent. i have absolutely zero accent (i speak russian with a german accent). after a few more session i stopped going there. she fed me new insecurities and whenever i tried to steer the conversation towards bullying, she found something new about my appearance to steer the conversation too.

Shit therapist tbh. I would recommend asking for a male, females often just can't relate to men's specific problems. Also different therapists use different approaches and you have to find something that works on you.

I can relate to the feeling of not having lived my youth and to be kind of an alien among normies, when they talk about their "wild days" it's suifuel to me, and I have to admit I haven't really found a way to fight this feeling. You have to remember though that you are not alone, there are enough people that had a difficult past and weren't part of the normie lifestyle as well that you could build a friendship with.

 

[micropenis29]

no libido. i haven't watched porn for months.

This might be a good time to try to find some better porn then. Also, keep looking for other (legal) things that you can do that will give you some pleasure. This will give you a reason to get out of bed.

If your therapists aren't generally giving you the above advice, then they suck imho and you should ditch them.

 

[CaptainRussia]

Shit therapist tbh. I would recommend asking for a male, females often just can't relate to men's specific problems. Also different therapists use different approaches and you have to find something that works on you.

I can relate to the feeling of not having lived my youth and to be kind of an alien among normies, when they talk about their "wild days" it's suifuel to me, and I have to admit I haven't really found a way to fight this feeling. You have to remember though that you are not alone, there are enough people that had a difficult past and weren't part of the normie lifestyle as well that you could build a friendship with.

true that. i have tried a lot of inviting. but to no avail so far. even other non good looking people avoid me. it's like everyone has at least one friend and there just is no need to be friends with the absolute bottom of the barrel when it comes to looks. i think i got a lot to offer. i traveled many places, know many restaurants, i am good at organizing trips and you can get drunk with me. it's just that there never comes anything back. people tell me "i'll get back to you" and then they never get back to me. i've read books, tried cold approaching and went to bars alone, but it just doesn't get better. people look at me and tey see an incel. they see i have no friends. even my gymcelling is perceived as tryharding. it's like pouring water into a bottomless barrel. i put in effort, put in effort, put in effort and nothing ever comes back. i am trying now to not invite and not text and wait till i get texted first, but its the 6t week already and still no meassages from anyone.

 

[Erenor]

true that. i have tried a lot of inviting. but to no avail so far. even other non good looking people avoid me. it's like everyone has at least one friend and there just is no need to be friends with the absolute bottom of the barrel when it comes to looks. i think i got a lot to offer. i traveled many places, know many restaurants, i am good at organizing trips and you can get drunk with me. it's just that there never comes anything back. people tell me "i'll get back to you" and then they never get back to me. i've read books, tried cold approaching and went to bars alone, but it just doesn't get better. people look at me and tey see an incel. i am trying now to not invite and not text and wait till i get texted first, but its the 6t week already and still no meassages from anyone.

hm, all I can say is that I've made the experience that the more time you have to spend with someone and the more activities you have to do together the easier it is to befriend them, asking people you barely have contact or shared experienes with to meet up is much more difficult. Most of the friends I made were either my flatmates or people I was together with in a study group for uni. Especially getting a nice flatmate I can recommend very much, you always have someone around and there is probably no easier way to make friends.
they see i have no friends. even my gymcelling is perceived as tryharding.

it's like pouring water into a bottomless barrel. i put in effort, put in effort, put in effort and nothing ever comes back.

you have to find out what is going wrong aside from your looks to have more success and not deplete you energy and motivation. I think it's unlikely that looks are the only thing that cause such reactions and that there is nothing that you can do to get better reactions.

i am trying now to not invite and not text and wait till i get texted first, but its the 6t week already and still no meassages from anyone.

this will only make things worse tbh. don't orbit anyone, wether females or males for friendship, if they repeatedly ignore you, forget them, but inviting people first is a good and necessary thing to do imo, especially as an incel.

 

[IsolationHurts]

i spent all my life isolated

i put in effort, put in effort, put in effort and nothing ever comes back.

I know how that feels. Perfectly
Good luck bro. Keep trying.

Foid psychologists are the biggest joke on this planet.

This. Never go to a femoid therapists. You have a 90% chance of them hating men in general, and you in particular, because youre ugly. Also, they could not be more bluepilled, so no advice is going to work as a ugly male.

 

[Unzöl]

I don't care about being lonely any more. Tbh I kind enjoy living alone now because I absolutely hate talking and socialization.

 

[ImpureIncel]

I'm in the same boat. Have you tried working with children or animals? the last friends I had were kids and there's plenty of foids working those kinds of jobs.

 

[CaptainRussia]

this will only make things worse tbh. don't orbit anyone, wether females or males for friendship, if they repeatedly ignore you, forget them, but inviting people first is a good and necessary thing to do imo, especially as an incel.

everyone i know has ghosted me already. years of bullying made me introverted. i just dont seem to be as "alive" as my peers. they can laugh about trivial stuff. i cant anymore. the thing with others is, that nobody wants to be friends with the "weird loner". so i order for others to be "safe" spending time with me without killing their status, i need to get friends first.

I'm in the same boat. Have you tried working with children or animals? the last friends I had were kids and there's plenty of foids working those kinds of jobs.

i got called "child molester looking" before, also im old and dont have anything in common with kids. i better not get close to kids, else im gonna get lynched by random normies, because im ugly.

 

[BrutusWarmus]

Do you work? You could do what i do and distract myself by working my life away. Not the best but its better than wallowing

 

[CaptainRussia]

Do you work? You could do what i do and distract myself by working my life away. Not the best but its better than wallowing

i do. but i cant no more. i cannot think. im very unproductive. i cannot concentrate on anything.

 

[Erenor]

i just dont seem to be as "alive" as my peers. they can laugh about trivial stuff. i cant anymore.

i do. but i cant no more. i cannot think. im very unproductive. i cannot concentrate on anything.

This really sounds like depression and doesn't have to be a permanent state of mind.
It might look hopeless now, but the trick is to make little steps, hang onto good copes and find something that gives you hope until your emotions are more normal again and you can have a acceptable life and find friends more easily. Find some new hobbies, even if you don't really feel like having "fun", get into new group based activities, change something in your life, maybe look for a new job if your current one is shit, try copes like meditation, cold showers, nofap, etc. that, even if they wouldn't work at least can give you energy by giving you hope your life can improve.
Therapy can be extremely useful here and is often even necessary: You have someone to talk to about things you couldn't with anyone else and you have bottled up inside and he can show you how to break out of the hopeless thoughts patterns in your head and improve your life step by step. And sometimes, if all the previously mentioned doesn't work, adding medication can pull you out of it and save your life.
Whatever you decide to do, I wish you luck. Remember that there probably is a way to get better even if you can't see it now.

 

[ChronicPaincel]

play manhunt

That game is very underrated

 

[NeetSupremacist]

Just cope harder and better.

 

[allbluee]

videogames have not been fun to me for a long time. everything i do is forced. nothing is fun. i hardly get out of bed in the morning. i want to die.

-how old are you? and are you working/studying or neeting everyday?

 

[ImpureIncel]

i got called "child molester looking" before, also im old and dont have anything in common with kids. i better not get close to kids, else im gonna get lynched by random normies, because im ugly.[/QUOTE]
That's too bad. People thought I was a child molester too, but I didn't give a fuck, peoples reaction to me is no different anywhere else.

 

[visage]

I am similar situation. About the same age as well approaching 30. Except I had a great childhood and teenage years. been alone for a decade now. Completely isolated outside of going to work a few days a week. Only go out for groceries and gym. No friends. No family. Sometime masturbate in front of cleaning lady who comes to my apartment once a week. Shes used to it now.

 

[Deleted member 1983]

lmao even has wow open on the login screen already.

God plays world of warcraft confirmed.

 

[Hozo]

That's your own fault, Bro. You should have thought about all that before you decided to be born ugly.

 

[CaptainRussia]

-how old are you? and are you working/studying or neeting everyday?

im closer to 30 than to 20 and im working.

it's like the life is drained out of me. im sick of having to fight everyday to be treated like a human.

 

[allbluee]

im closer to 30 than to 20 and im working.

it's like the life is drained out of me. im sick of having to fight everyday to be treated like a human.

thats what i fear the most. Being a workcel and having no friends. Did you study. If yes, was it different there?

 

[CaptainRussia]

thats what i fear the most. Being a workcel and having no friends. Did you study. If yes, was it different there?

people contacted me when they needed something. nobody ever invited me anywhere.

 

[SOCIALSUICIDE]

You need to break your back. Literally go jump a cliff and break your back. You will give everything to walk again, and when you do, ull be happy again

 

[ChronicPaincel]

tbh, good fucking game with the good old gore like soldier of fortune 2

One of my favorite ps2 games ever tbh

 

[StaroRavager]

Loneliness doesn’t even bother me anymore at this point. It’s mostly the principle of the matter that gets me

 

[Deleted member 11032]

Your only choice is to either push harder like never before or give up. If you are not going to sui then you might as well go in the complete opposite direction and live life to the fullest. No point in being half dead in limbo. What I'm saying is easier said than done I know.
You need to looksmax and moneymax. You need to set goals and work towards something. Meditation helps and vigorous exercise is essential. Fuck other people.

 

[Deleted member 14490]

Your only choice is to either push harder like never before or give up. If you are not going to sui then you might as well go in the complete opposite direction and live life to the fullest. No point in being half dead in limbo. What I'm saying is easier said than done I know.
You need to looksmax and moneymax. You need to set goals and work towards something. Meditation helps and vigorous exercise is essential. Fuck other people.

Yes bro. My last cope is stemcelling to get surgerybuxx. If surgery doesn't work, it's over tbh.

 

[ValiantThor2]

i have been lonely for most of my life. exceptions were short periods of cope.i see all my life passing by, while im sitting here caged in this body. unable to escape. undeserving of love and affection, human like treatment from others or happiness. it has to end or im gonna snap. theres not much life in me left.

I had a bad bout of this for a few days & only started feeling better today. the feeling of me rotting while life passes & I cant do anything. When foids feel like this they speak about it and everyone listens to them whilst we wake up alone. I cant give advice for it as I don't think an answer even exists.

 

[PM_ME_STRIPPERS]

ugly males are meant to be lonely

 

[Kent]

people contacted me when they needed something. nobody ever invited me anywhere.

That has always happened to me as well. Whenever I get a call there is a bit of laughing & catching up and the obligatory request...fuck em.

First realize that you aren't the only lonely person. Thing you gotta realize is that a lotta people...a lotta people...maybe most people only hang out with other people (typically referred to as "friends") only for VALIDATION. Using you as free therapist, talking about their jobs and why they should be promoted or whatever bullshit or bragging about their beautiful wife (when in actuality their wife is AVERAGE looking or fucking worse, c'mon you fucking faggot lurkers ....even you know that to go out with a beautiful woman all you have to do is redefine and deem them "beautiful" fuck you and your fucking ugly wife get off the forum).

Of course not everyone is out to use you. Unless they are funny or smart and genuinely care about you (and you care about them) or add some value to your life on some level ...not fucking worth it. Just get a dog. Much better company.