I want to share with you my life story.
Sorry for my english, i m from Romania.
My birth was a mistake because i wasn t wasn't wanted, my mother wanted to kill me throwing me under a train and my dad left when she was pregnant.
I was adopted by my grandpa and grandmother, so i will talk about them naming them parents.
I was the perfect victim for bully at school (small, short, shy) the perfect prey.
Everyday, 8 years was a mentally and physically torture.
From the moment i was opening the door i was kicked in the back, punched, they spit on me .
The teachers also made fun of me because of my anxiety and when the other kids did something bad they lied and were telling it was me who did it, and if that wasn t enough my parents were believing that lies and beat me at home.
A teacher slapped me 3 times on my face after someone lied about something bad i talked about her.
My father was drunk everyday, he kicked me and my mother out many times..
At the dinner time , sometime i will starve myself because when i was going to eat he will always talk bad about me
My mother got cancer and she tried many times to kill herself after many conflicts with my dad, and i saved her because i heard her crying and opening a wardrobe( the only one in the house wich had knifes) and i was pulling the knife from her hands.
My birthday was a reason to get beat up, the bully made fun of me everytime i was a year older, so i always tried to hide my birthday ..
I never had a friend, never talked more than 500 words with people in my lifetime, and i always tried to escape the conversation with words like(yeah, mhm, sure)
When i was 2y old some family member was giving me toys for my birthday and a few days after my mom was stepping on them , breaking them after i got a bad grade.
Untill 14 i had arythmia( or that is what i think i had) , every night it was hard to sleep because my heart rate was 150/160 beats per minute
This is what what my every school day was looking like.
View: https://i.imgur.com/IdhUfF2.mp4
View: https://i.imgur.com/DFhn2ir.mp4
View: https://i.imgur.com/KeSfMa7.mp4
Then i started to train MMA, lift weights .. i was full of hate i wanted to do a school shooting... But i still trained and after summer i was beating untill i put in hospital that 2 bullies.
Then i had problems with police of course.
What hurt is.. i had just one wish .. only one.
A girlfriend. A shy, virgin, romantic girl, introvert, with no male friends who will trully care about me.
At night i was allways crying in pillow hugging it begging for a girl who will show me love.
I don t care about sex, never i , i care about love, being loved and give that love..
View: https://i.imgur.com/0xJw6CD.jpg
View: https://i.imgur.com/6xix0sA.jpg
View: https://i.imgur.com/vB1x3wW.jpg
That s all i ever wanted , IS THIS TO MUCH? I DON T WANT MONEY, OBJECTS, I WANT A PERSON, A PERSON WHO IS LIKE ME.
My hate is strong, and i don t think i can keep it anymore.
I WANT TO MAKE THEM FEEL MY PAIN
Sorry for my english, i m from Romania.
My birth was a mistake because i wasn t wasn't wanted, my mother wanted to kill me throwing me under a train and my dad left when she was pregnant.
I was adopted by my grandpa and grandmother, so i will talk about them naming them parents.
I was the perfect victim for bully at school (small, short, shy) the perfect prey.
Everyday, 8 years was a mentally and physically torture.
From the moment i was opening the door i was kicked in the back, punched, they spit on me .
The teachers also made fun of me because of my anxiety and when the other kids did something bad they lied and were telling it was me who did it, and if that wasn t enough my parents were believing that lies and beat me at home.
A teacher slapped me 3 times on my face after someone lied about something bad i talked about her.
My father was drunk everyday, he kicked me and my mother out many times..
At the dinner time , sometime i will starve myself because when i was going to eat he will always talk bad about me
My mother got cancer and she tried many times to kill herself after many conflicts with my dad, and i saved her because i heard her crying and opening a wardrobe( the only one in the house wich had knifes) and i was pulling the knife from her hands.
My birthday was a reason to get beat up, the bully made fun of me everytime i was a year older, so i always tried to hide my birthday ..
I never had a friend, never talked more than 500 words with people in my lifetime, and i always tried to escape the conversation with words like(yeah, mhm, sure)
When i was 2y old some family member was giving me toys for my birthday and a few days after my mom was stepping on them , breaking them after i got a bad grade.
Untill 14 i had arythmia( or that is what i think i had) , every night it was hard to sleep because my heart rate was 150/160 beats per minute
This is what what my every school day was looking like.
View: https://i.imgur.com/IdhUfF2.mp4
View: https://i.imgur.com/DFhn2ir.mp4
View: https://i.imgur.com/KeSfMa7.mp4
Then i started to train MMA, lift weights .. i was full of hate i wanted to do a school shooting... But i still trained and after summer i was beating untill i put in hospital that 2 bullies.
Then i had problems with police of course.
What hurt is.. i had just one wish .. only one.
A girlfriend. A shy, virgin, romantic girl, introvert, with no male friends who will trully care about me.
At night i was allways crying in pillow hugging it begging for a girl who will show me love.
I don t care about sex, never i , i care about love, being loved and give that love..
View: https://i.imgur.com/0xJw6CD.jpg
View: https://i.imgur.com/6xix0sA.jpg
View: https://i.imgur.com/vB1x3wW.jpg
That s all i ever wanted , IS THIS TO MUCH? I DON T WANT MONEY, OBJECTS, I WANT A PERSON, A PERSON WHO IS LIKE ME.
My hate is strong, and i don t think i can keep it anymore.
I WANT TO MAKE THEM FEEL MY PAIN
