It's Over My life is tragic

[RicecelBetabux]

There’s absolutely no point in living past 30. In fact, it was already over as soon as HS ended.

Throughout HS I basically just rotted on looksmax and 4chan and discord, all the time in class, and until 2 AM. This was basically my “teenage experience”

I have had 0 IRL friends for the past 3 years. I’ve been bullied harshly by specific people since I was 12.


I’m thinking I’ll Die while K/D farming and IRL spinbotting (in Minecraft).

My only friend is Alcohol, a bro who always has my back. I just know nothing other than wallowing in depression and drinking and doomscrolling.

 

[RicecelBetabux]

I just want to go do something big (in minecraft). My prime years were wasted by myself, while ruined by specific people.

My social development was hindered by my chink parents

 

[RicecelBetabux]

from ages 12-17, I experienced 3 arcs of bullies, and I had 0 IRL friends
12-14: had a fallout with my best friend and bullied by him and his friend group
14-16: bullied by an online autist, who constantly doxxed me and turned 30+ ppl against me
16-17: made fun of by a group of NT girls, because I’m autistic and cringe

 

[RicecelBetabux]

I think I’m gonna lash out against normies once and for all. In minecraft

And that’ll be the end of me

 

[all this time]

I don’t got much to say other than it’s so over

 

[RicecelBetabux]

I don’t got much to say other than it’s so over

It was over as soon as my dad met my mom

 

[all this time]

It was over as soon as my dad met my mom

 

[RicecelBetabux]

I have no purpose in life. I’m in university for engineering; although the courses seem interesting and I want to eventually graduate and get a job, there is zero purpose in my life.

 

[RicecelBetabux]

my next 30 years will just be:
- Wake up
- go to work
- come back
- watch anime/play vidya alone
- sleep
- repeat
It’s pretty much the same as NEETing

 

[RicecelBetabux]

I want to die in such a spectacular fashion, that normies nearby will also die from the awesomeness

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

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[OutcompetedByRoomba]

I can relate to the feeling though, having been bullied and feeling no purpose to living on it really is just mostly basic survival instinct and the hope for the tech singularity that is keeping me going.

In the wilderness you could have just physcially attacked the people tormenting you once it got unbearable, but thanks to school preventing physical violence but being powerless to stop les direct forms of relational aggression you get to be tortured for years without ever being able to fight back. Suicide rates are the highest on month when school starts up again. Retarded system.

 

[RicecelBetabux]

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whats AS/ASI

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

whats AS/ASI

AI = artifical intelligence
AGI = artifical general intelligence
ASI = artifical superintelligence

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

since "superintelligence" is such unclear term, it's basically an AI that on average makes better decisions than humans can across ~all domains.

 

[fang]

How are you asian and zoomer and drinking alcohol?
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