- Jan 17, 2023
- 10h 44m
Why won't you care? Why won't you believe me? Just for once. I did what you told me to. For years i followed your stupid advice. I was nice to women, tried becoming friends without expectations, i put myself out there, i joined hobby groups, i maintained a positive attitude, supported those who needed it. And guess what? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. People tolerated my presence when we met by accident, called me when they needed help and ignored me in any other scenario. I did what you and people like you in my life told me to. All i got was the humiliation of rejection for years and a youth wasted on video games, because that was the only thing i could do alone. Nobody cared. I didn't even get one single "sorry to hear it" in my entire life from my self-titled "friends". Not even one shred of empathy. I got told that everything will be fine for a fancy lad like me. Or maybe told that my issues are pathetic, my whining is pathetic and i don't deserve any support - sometimes from the same people who previously recieved mine and were oh so grateful. Or maybe accusations that actually i must be a complete piece of shit and deserved every issue i have. Add to that all the mainstrea media articles who only cared that i may be a recruiting pool for the alt-right and will review bomb the latest show with a girlboss protagonist. I still kept doing the same things. 3 years. 6 years. 10 years. More and more tired with every year. And this is how i ended up. Old, tired, broken and suicidal. Are you happy?