SuicideFuel My father's apocalyptic cult is stalking me

[Livonica_Irreale]

I've had enough. I can't handle it anymore.
My life was already miserable, with horrific childhood, and then i thought i am finally free from my sick family, but i'm scared of second round with my fucked up father.
One of my stupid relatives of course didn't cared about my trauma, and was asking one of my father's friends - how is he doing.
Instead he said - "We know everything about Livonica".
I don't know if he was bluffing, but i'm not excluding that cult is stalking me, and gathering info for future drama.
I have enough. If something is gonna happen in future, i don't know if i wouldn't go rampage.
I can't create positive relations, i can't make a new loving family. Every relative is oriented around this fucking drama and self-deprecating madness of hating each other.
I'm just tired.

For the context:

What will happen, if arguing parents from rivalising religious cults will fight over a clueless kid...

I'm 27, parents divorced when i was 4 and yep - my father is from fucking Jesus-Christ will come and wipe out everyone tomorrow cult, and grandma is low IQ dumb catholic zealot (mum doesn't want to engage in conflict but cockoo grandma forced her to). Both of them started to brainwash me since i...

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[GobidMujahid]

How did your parents marry in the first place?

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

How did your parents marry in the first place?

Father was simping to my mother. For a long time, then she gave up and started dating him.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Maybe if you don't believe me all - i'll tell you name of the cult:
Jehovah's Witnesses
Shalom motherfuckers, if you stalk me here too. Fuck you, if you'll harass me again - i'll spray you with pepper spray to death.

 

[Justin Mohns]

Maybe if you don't believe me all - i'll tell you name of the cult:
Jehovah's Witnesses
Shalom motherfuckers, if you stalk me here too. Fuck you, if you'll harass me again - i'll spray you with pepper spray to death.

if u join them will u find a girlfriend there?

 

[nazianime]

I have met with people that joined jehovas witnesses and they always seemed off after. It’s kind of like the Mormons who will have underage brides and polygamy.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

I have met with people that joined jehovas witnesses and they always seemed off after.

Every children i've met through my father from that fucked up group has a suicide attempt.
And i wasn't even formally their member.
I don't want these bastards even close to me. I swear i'm so scared right now i want to buy a revolver and keep it for a black hour.

 

[The Notorious SLAV]

JWs are a bizarre group and it's good that there seems to be more spotlight on them recently. I think a year or so ago a tv show made fun of them here.

Every children i've met through my father from that fucked up group has a suicide attempt.
And i wasn't even formally their member.
I don't want these bastards even close to me. I swear i'm so scared right now i want to buy a revolver and keep it for a black hour.

If you're genuinely feeling unsafe, buying a gun if possible and carrying a knife and/or a taser/pepper spray with you is a pretty good choice, always better safe than sorry, though I think that how much danger you're in could maybe depend on how high your father is in that cult? AFAIK, cults usually don't really kidnap people and focus much more on drawing them in and keeping them inside, but if your father is high enough maybe they would do a move against you to keep you under control in a way they wouldn't move against a low-ranker's family. But that's just me thinking out loud.

 

[Cuckoja]

Jehovah's Witnesses

Oh, and i wondered who they were. Yeah theyre crazy, almost as much as scientologist and other coocoos. From most normal ones, 7th day adventists also seem little cult-ish

 

[TooSomething]

Father was simping to my mother. For a long time, then she gave up and started dating him.

So, your mom settled. Many such cases.

 

[TooSomething]

Maybe if you don't believe me all - i'll tell you name of the cult:
Jehovah's Witnesses
Shalom motherfuckers, if you stalk me here too. Fuck you, if you'll harass me again - i'll spray you with pepper spray to death.

Oh shit, OH SHIT. My mom's one too. My father isn't but he is a communism coper.

I swear these people suck dick.

 

[TooSomething]

if u join them will u find a girlfriend there?

Normally, they have virgin foids. At least the young ones.
They are supposed to marry "within the lord", so only other JWs.

But even those foids are Chad only. I have seen it with my own eyes in the congregation of my town and in VERY BIG congregation in soccer stadiums.

These people are such blue pilled cucks.

Their young foids nowadays however aren't much better than non JW foids.

But hey, if you want to try your luck ascending there, go for it and LARP as a JW.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Oh shit, OH SHIT. My mom's one too. My father isn't but he is a communism coper.

I swear these people suck dick.

I don't want to live. I'm too damaged. And i cannot unfuck myself, because i don't have any positive pattern from my family and childhood. Everyone were lying, i wasn't considered as a human, but a fucking trade item. The only time i've seen my family kissing & hugging was in old VHS videos.
I've cried myself finally first time since 2-3 years. I don't want this shit to repeat. I want something to be built, i want to create a new family.
But no, this is bullshit. I was designed to live in misery. No foid wants to engage with me, no relatives can do anything besides destruction & drama, i won't find a new family either.
Fucking shit i don't know right now how to cope. Today's reminder about stalking cult was way too much for me to process. And i even see shit like this:

if u join them will u find a girlfriend there?

Fuck you bitch & burn in hell. Ascension with JW girl is connected with almost immediately suicide. I'd suicide for sure if my father didn't abandoned me, or go ER. Why these fucks are allowed even to exist?

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I wish I could ascend with a cultist foid

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

You know what? I have enough.
Nobody believes me this shit was so hardcore. I can't vent to no one IRL, because i'm either gaslighted, or they justify my father, or they're bellitling me, for not going forward with this. This level of madness is beyond anyone's understanding.
I've got as forward as i can. I did anything to do with this, to escape misery. But with this info reaching me, i've got this fucking flashbacks again, and again i needed to vent, but nobody IRL, no normie, even in internet or here couldn't believe this. I don't want to deal with him, and his fucked up colleagues in future. Even therapists couldn't believe me.
This is too much. Not even i didn't earned any love in my childhood, but they're taking it away from me in my adulthood, and blaming me for it.
I want my father dead. I'm blamed for wanting him dead - because "uhhh you're his son, why don't you feel your blood bond" - i feel raging hatred in my blood bond. If he's stalking me, and if he's preparing to encounter me or shit - i wanted him dead.

 

[Emba]

I wish I could ascend with a cultist foid

Yeah!

Me too!

Sign me up!

 

[poorenglishcel]

Don't worry the I.N.C.E.L. will keep you safe