I feel like I'm an useless member of my family who is tolerated and kept in the household for no good reason.
My family hates me and I hate myself for my miserable existence. My father is a Chad and one of the manliest men I know and I am sure that he wanted his son to follow his footsteps.
He got me instead. A god damned ugly manlet.
My mother wanted a smart child, and when I was younger I was always told I'm intelligent and had potential. I'm failing in school miserably and probably won't make it to university.
They never directly show this to me until get mad tho. I act like I don't care when my mother calls me a retard or my father calls me a parasite and an faggot.
It would be a lot better if I was aborted or something and they had another son who actually fulfilled their expectations. I can see the disappointment in their eyes.
This is one of the main reasons I want to rope to he honest. It hurts me. I want to run away from home and this plan has been in my mind for like a year but I simply cannot do it until a find a source of income or a temporary living space like an orphanage. On the other hand, I wonder if it's worth all that work and if I should just rope and be done with it
Thank you for reading this if you made it through the end I known this is pathetic but I just need to vent somewhere and really got nobody to talk to.
Thanks.
My family hates me and I hate myself for my miserable existence. My father is a Chad and one of the manliest men I know and I am sure that he wanted his son to follow his footsteps.
He got me instead. A god damned ugly manlet.
My mother wanted a smart child, and when I was younger I was always told I'm intelligent and had potential. I'm failing in school miserably and probably won't make it to university.
They never directly show this to me until get mad tho. I act like I don't care when my mother calls me a retard or my father calls me a parasite and an faggot.
It would be a lot better if I was aborted or something and they had another son who actually fulfilled their expectations. I can see the disappointment in their eyes.
This is one of the main reasons I want to rope to he honest. It hurts me. I want to run away from home and this plan has been in my mind for like a year but I simply cannot do it until a find a source of income or a temporary living space like an orphanage. On the other hand, I wonder if it's worth all that work and if I should just rope and be done with it
Thank you for reading this if you made it through the end I known this is pathetic but I just need to vent somewhere and really got nobody to talk to.
Thanks.
