During the forth of July I was at my aunt’s house with my whole family for a barbecue. Most of the time I hang out with my older cousin who’s a 24 year old virgin, and he’s also a manlet and nonNT, basically a truecel. I’m glad I have someone to relate to in my family at least.
Anyways I also have two younger female cousins who are sisters. The older one of two is already dating at 13 years old, whereas when I was 13 I was so far removed from the idea of dating and still am now that I know I will never be wanted by any woman. So she facetimes her boyfriend while the family is around and all of a sudden my fucking grandmother who is on the verge of developing dementia says out loud “let (my name) talk to him” because I guess some of my other family members were saying hi to him.
It put me on the spot and it was awkward as fuck, and I basically had to put on an act and say hello to him. I then walked away and I think I overheard my aunt saying something like “I think he is jealous of her” I guess because she has a boyfriend and I’ve never had a girlfriend. No I am not fucking making this up and I wish I fucking was. It was humiliating because if I said fuck no and walked away, I’m the asshole and a high inhib like me doesn’t have the balls to be that bold so I had to pretend like I was being friendly.
Why the fuck would they make me talk to him? Me, a grown man with my scraggly beard and fucked up face, and someone who is a naturally born introvert. What was the point of talking to some stupid fucking kid that’s dating my cousin? It was as strange for me as it was emasculating. I fucking hate my life
Anyways I also have two younger female cousins who are sisters. The older one of two is already dating at 13 years old, whereas when I was 13 I was so far removed from the idea of dating and still am now that I know I will never be wanted by any woman. So she facetimes her boyfriend while the family is around and all of a sudden my fucking grandmother who is on the verge of developing dementia says out loud “let (my name) talk to him” because I guess some of my other family members were saying hi to him.
It put me on the spot and it was awkward as fuck, and I basically had to put on an act and say hello to him. I then walked away and I think I overheard my aunt saying something like “I think he is jealous of her” I guess because she has a boyfriend and I’ve never had a girlfriend. No I am not fucking making this up and I wish I fucking was. It was humiliating because if I said fuck no and walked away, I’m the asshole and a high inhib like me doesn’t have the balls to be that bold so I had to pretend like I was being friendly.
Why the fuck would they make me talk to him? Me, a grown man with my scraggly beard and fucked up face, and someone who is a naturally born introvert. What was the point of talking to some stupid fucking kid that’s dating my cousin? It was as strange for me as it was emasculating. I fucking hate my life
