I would say that would probably be the best option in your shoes. I also think you need to get yourself networked with good people. I'm not saying convert to christianity i'm saying getting fault in a church. Claim that there is abuse in the home and you need help to excel. A lot of them will help you out if you present yourself as a likable person. That's the hard truth with humans. You have to trick them into liking you but christians are very understanding, Or they think helping you is good in god's eyes. You can keep your atheism in the closet. This of course is what I do when I need to network. It's almost like conartistry they don't know who you really are. On top of that, get a job if you don't have one and save every penny. Try to find a minimalistic way of living for your If self do not spend more than you need to. I wish I had this discipline. But at least I don't live with my parents. Those fuckers are dead. Would you consider maybe learning the trade? Or getting a d l c? And becoming a trucker. Also, yes, I think you should try to lose Waits but the way your dad treated you is unacceptable in my opinion He's shaming you and he doesn't understand your situation. I hate when parents fuck and create human beings, which they abuse and expect them to be some miracle child This is disgusting. But you are here you are born here alive. Try to push yourself into survival mode. That's all I can say your problem is serious man I wish you all the Luck you're going to need it.