Venting My condition seems to be deteriorating fast. Now i'm thinking of suicide as an nice solution.

[Lookscel]

Now i'm thinking that suicide is actually a very good solution to my problems plus achieving my goals is very hard anyway plus everything is rigged against me anyway.

Just thinking about it is interesting. A simple end to my biggest problems. No more feelings, no more struggle, no more agony, no more pain, no more hate, no more trying to have friends, no more trying to fit in no more living on little hope. A one shot way out. A simple but elegant all round solution.

Never thought my condition could deteriote so fast.

 

[I.N.C.E.L.S. Boss]

I enjoy life through the copes and pains. I wouldn't encourage suicide.
Before you reee at me, i am a 26 yo virgin.

 

[FrothySolutions]

What happened recently to bring you to this level of deterioration?

 

[CopingJim]

Sad shit man, I wish I could tell you something positive, but I dont have anything positive to say

 

[Lookscel]

I enjoy life through the copes and pains. I wouldn't encourage suicide.
Before you reee at me, i am a 26 yo virgin.

I won't reee at you bro. Nobody wants to see a fellowcel die.

Maybe you are right, I should find other copes.

 

[Stalin]

should find other copes

 

[nihility]

time heals

 

[Deleted member 21908]

it's the only way out... when the copes run out this is what our future looks like

 

[Lookscel]

What happened recently to bring you to this level of deterioration?

Imo I had somehow was able to tolerate all the bad things that happened to me but now it seems I just can't tolerate it anymore and am breaking down now.

Maybe after breaking down I will be much better and become more resistant to the torture my life is.

 

[Deleted member 25274]

You can either live like this for the next 30 years or rope.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

time heals

Too right it does nigga. Allow Generals Time/Patience & Natural Justice aka Karma to take their course of action.

Imo I had somehow was able to tolerate all the bad things that happened to me but now it seems I just can't tolerate it anymore and am breaking down now.

Maybe after breaking down I will be much better and become more resistant to the torture my life is.

Have a cry. In private.

 

[bait____]

Suicide is LIFEFUEL

 

[Lookscel]

Too right it does nigga. Allow Generals Time/Patience & Natural Justice aka Karma to take their course of action.


Have a cry. In private.

Ngl I cried myself to sleep two days ago

You can either live like this for the next 30 years or rope.

I just live on tiny hope that I have. Once that hope disappears I would too.

 

[Deleted member 25274]

I just live on tiny hope that I have. Once that hope disappears I would too.

Its inevitable to happen

 

[Deleted member 10150]

if you can still enjoy staying infotn your gaming PC and consume media and food and have enought money whit good work or hobby or neetbux/parents and you are not in gr8 pain you can prolong your existence and research more carefully copes and exits too , you can see this 2020 is full of happenings and we are strong at numbers , but i do not know your pains and how close are to rock bottom so good luck and peace this life is not worth staying if no shelter food and media and no pain

 

[FrothySolutions]

Imo I had somehow was able to tolerate all the bad things that happened to me but now it seems I just can't tolerate it anymore and am breaking down now.

Maybe after breaking down I will be much better and become more resistant to the torture my life is.

Where is your life right now? In terms of what's happening? Not what's "not happening?"

 

[Lookscel]

Where is your life right now? In terms of what's happening? Not what's "not happening?"

Family issues
Academic issues
Narrow jaw
Assymetrical face
Ugly
Shit skin colour
Reccesed chin
Started to lose hair at 16
No friends
It takes normies less than a day to figure out something is off with me
Fear that I will never have money to get surgeries and ascend
Hate the fact that my father see my condition everyday and their says " Shut up and study "
Where ever I go I can feel everyone hates me
No matter what I do I will always be hated cause I did the mistake of being born as a loner ugly male
I have not a single thing in my life which I can genuinely look back at and say " That's a nice memory ".

 

[FrothySolutions]

I meant more like, what are you doing in your life right now?

 

[squirrelsonfire2]

Yes contemplating the robin williams method currently

 

[Lookscel]

I meant more like, what are you doing in your life right now?

I just finished school and will starting college.

 

[FrothySolutions]

I just finished school and will starting college.

What about your academic issues though?

 

[Lookscel]

What about your academic issues though?

I feel I have to study more than an average person to be at the same level.

 

[FrothySolutions]

I feel I have to study more than an average person to be at the same level.

You're having trouble grasping certain concepts?

 

[DepressionTookMyIQ]

I wish i had the option to go ER tbh, it's only a matter of time for me to rope, i finished college but there's no job for me, not now not too soon

 

[Ropemaxx]

Now i'm thinking that suicide is actually a very good solution

it has always been

Suicide is LIFEFUEL

lol, true, even though how ironic that is

 

[Transcended Trucel]

 

[Lookscel]

You're having trouble grasping certain concepts?

It just takes me longer. When I study a concept I think about it in detail and also try to come up with alternative ways to explain the same thing, think about it from different perspectives. For example I would think why an constant is there in an equation and what is it's physical origin, or two ways to explain the same thing. Normies ( where I live ) just look at a concept or idea and just learn rememberize it somehow then go ahead and get good marks, which seems impossible for me to do. Plus I forget things over the time but apparently that happens to everyone.

 

[FrothySolutions]

It just takes me longer. When I study a concept I think about it in detail and also try to come up with alternative ways to explain the same thing, think about it from different perspectives. For example I would think why an constant is there in an equation and what is it's physical origin, or two ways to explain the same thing. Normies ( where I live ) just look at a concept or idea and just learn rememberize it somehow then go ahead and get good marks, which seems impossible for me to do. Plus I forget things over the time but apparently that happens to everyone.

Needing to "understand" instead of "memorize" is better though?

 

[Lookscel]

Needing to "understand" instead of "memorize" is better though?

You are right. It is but it still hurts to see myself studying something in detail while others just memorize it and get same if not better marks then me.

 

[FrothySolutions]

You are right. It is but it still hurts to see myself studying something in detail while others just memorize it and get same if not better marks then me.

Marks won't help you in practice. You need to know how to do the job/whatever it is you're going to college for, not just graduate.

 

[ItsOver4cel]

I enjoy life through the copes and pains. I wouldn't encourage suicide.

same here

 

[Lookscel]

Marks won't help you in practice. You need to know how to do the job/whatever it is you're going to college for, not just graduate.

You are right tho

Btw thanks for talking I actually somehow feel much better

 

[FrothySolutions]

You are right tho

Btw thanks for talking I actually somehow feel much better

There's more stuff we could talk about, you mentioned other things.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I feel I have to study more than an average person to be at the same level.

Same. Take Nootropics. Develop consistency. Sit back & enjoy the ride. How old are you?

 

[Lookscel]

There's more stuff we could talk about, you mentioned other things.

I feel much better now. Thanks really I mean it.

Thanks but I dont think I should talk about my problems more lol. I dont want to impose upon you.

Same. Take Nootropics. Develop consistency. Sit back & enjoy the ride. How old are you?

I'm 19.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I feel much better now. Thanks really I mean it.

Thanks but I dont think I should talk about my problems more lol. I dont want to impose upon you.

I'm 19.

You're barely nothing... Like I said cope with this place. Find other copes & work on improving your capabilities.

Save up for at least 1 Escort experience. Moneymaxxx & Wealthmaxxx & studymaxxx for your own benefit.

 

[FrothySolutions]

Thanks but I dont think I should talk about my problems more lol. I dont want to impose upon you.

I'm not imposed. But if you're imposed, we don't have to talk. Not everything comes out all at once naturally.

 

[Deleted member 24293]

I encourage suicide for people with diseases. If you're healthy, stay. You still got a chance to see this shit world burn to the ground and I can't think of a greater satisfaction.

 

[Deleted member 23450]

19 and already wants to kill yourself?
ded srs?

 

[Lookscel]

You're barely nothing... Like I said cope with this place. Find other copes & work on improving your capabilities.

Save up for at least 1 Escort experience. Moneymaxxx & Wealthmaxxx & studymaxxx for your own benefit.

You are right I should find other copes and do something productive.

I'm not imposed. But if you're imposed, we don't have to talk. Not everything comes out all at once naturally.

I would be honest that was the first time using that pharse and english isn't my first language.

I just don't want to bother anyone with my personal problems . I'm not imposed infact I feel much better talking it out.

I encourage suicide for people with diseases. If you're healthy, stay. You still got a chance to see this shit world burn to the ground and I can't think of a greater satisfaction.

You have a nice point. I'm a healthy person after all.

19 and already wants to kill yourself?
ded srs?

I have been feeling very low lately, although I feel much better now.

 

[Deleted member 24293]

You have a nice point. I'm a healthy person after all.

My advice: Plan your suicide carefully with every detail. Really, go ahead and do it. Write it down. Make a plan. Where you wanna do it, how... but don't just execute this plan just yet. Just keep it in your back pocket for when shit really goes down. It will give you a piece of mind that you always have plan Z.

 

[Lookscel]

My advice: Plan your suicide carefully with every detail. Really, go ahead and do it. Write it down. Make a plan. Where you wanna do it, how... but don't just execute this plan just yet. Just keep it in your back pocket for when shit really goes down. It will give you a piece of mind that you always have plan Z.

Honestly speaking I already know how to execute my suicide. I have already chosen my method. But I think revealing such methods online isn't a good thing so I won't discuss it.

 

[Deleted member 23450]

Stop comparing yourself to others
Stop trying to be someone else because you won't be anyone beyond yourself.
If you're having too much suicidal thoughts it's probably because you're not even trying to change... you are just giving up
If you don't feel mentally prepared I recommend you to not get into college right now.
take a gap year to put your head in the right place.

 

[Deleted member 24293]

Honestly speaking I already know how to execute my suicide. I have already chosen my method. But I think revealing such methods online isn't a good thing so I won't discuss it.

That’s fine.

 

[Lookscel]

Stop comparing yourself to others
Stop trying to be someone else because you won't be anyone beyond yourself.
If you're having too much suicidal thoughts it's probably because you're not even trying to change... you are just giving up
If you don't feel mentally prepared I recommend you to not get into college right now.
take a gap year to put your head in the right place.

You are right, I just started to slowly give up and now I am looking for an easy way out. I should try to get back on track.

Thanks bro

 

[GoffSystemQB]

You are right. It is but it still hurts to see myself studying something in detail while others just memorize it and get same if not better marks then me.

I'm in the opposite position as you to the point where I barely put in effort at times and let me tell you, you will have a lot easier time past-college and in the real-world than I will.

19 is too young for the rope brocel.

 

[FUCKITALLREEE]

time heals

Won't heal because time is gonna makes our problems worst. But anyways op try to find better cope and watch how the pandemic fuck up roastie and chad life.

 

[Lookscel]

I'm in the opposite position as you to the point where I barely put in effort at times and let me tell you, you will have a lot easier time past-college and in the real-world than I will.

19 is too young for the rope brocel.

Hopefully that is the case.

You are right tho, 19 is way to young for rope.

 

[Yerberito]

You can either live like this for the next 30 years or rope.

 

[Deleted member 17997]

I have not a single thing in my life which I can genuinely look back at and say " That's a nice memory ".

That was hard to read ngl. I'm here for u bro