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I lack the sponaneity in life that normies have. When you ask them something they immediately answer. When you give them a problem they solve it so fast. They intuitively know the solution. They never have breaks in their thought process. They don't have to learn or do research before doing something, they instinctively know what's wrong and right. They don't even rationally think about, they don't analyze it, they just follow their instincts. It feels like I was born without those unwritten codes in my brain, without the spontaneity that allows them to pass through life with ease.
Despite having studied, I get mogged by teenagers when it comes to intelligence (=mental flexibility and fastness). A person with no formal education mogs me because intellect (=acquired knowledge) is literally meaningless, only the intelligence (=predetermined trait that cannot be changed no matter how hard you try and that allows you to make progress) matters because it gives you the opportunity to find new and creative solutions for problems with ease. I just follow orders that have been given to me by an outside force like a trained monkey and cannot come up with something on my own.
I only know one path after I am told that that path exists, they can find new paths all the time due to intuition, while I am stuck with the things others told me to do with no creativity/capacity for reflecting about it; freedom is a thing that wasn't meant for everyone, order/guidance is needed in the lifes of some people. I feel like I am stuck in a foreign city with no map, no compass and no capabilities of communication. I hate that fucking gay earth. Does anyone feel the same?
Despite having studied, I get mogged by teenagers when it comes to intelligence (=mental flexibility and fastness). A person with no formal education mogs me because intellect (=acquired knowledge) is literally meaningless, only the intelligence (=predetermined trait that cannot be changed no matter how hard you try and that allows you to make progress) matters because it gives you the opportunity to find new and creative solutions for problems with ease. I just follow orders that have been given to me by an outside force like a trained monkey and cannot come up with something on my own.
I only know one path after I am told that that path exists, they can find new paths all the time due to intuition, while I am stuck with the things others told me to do with no creativity/capacity for reflecting about it; freedom is a thing that wasn't meant for everyone, order/guidance is needed in the lifes of some people. I feel like I am stuck in a foreign city with no map, no compass and no capabilities of communication. I hate that fucking gay earth. Does anyone feel the same?
