Somehow my imsomnia, hormone imbalances and sex starving is all related. When I started to have deep imsonia aorund 11 I started to feel the need for affection and intimate sex to calm me down in bed jsut before sleep. Allready back then I was getting starved and mocked by foids and I was being sexually repressed by them, yeah with 12yo we were all thinkig about sex allready and chasing the girls. The next years in teendom got worst. My sexual hunger got stronger, 13 to 16 was my peak I will say and my sensation of restness got more deprived and deprived, and got worst. i needed intimate sex and petting from a foid in an intimate way to feel good and sleep. I never gott it of course. Worst part of it, all the years afterwards my imsomnia only became worst as my sexual starving become harder.
I got stuck in liking only JBs of that age, so the repression and worrying about eding up in jail or the like got me even more imsomnia. Its so bad that as per today basis still suffer from imsomnia to the point I think I will lose controll and fuck one of this JB foids i like in whatever conditions and I will get in to trouble and that gets me more imsomnia to the point of criple me. Im NEET now because of imsomnia.
So as you can see is a miracle i havent roped or raped a foid. And tonight when i go to bed I will go for the same process for hours and hours.
I wish I havent being born or at least like dogs instead of foids because sex would get me sleep but would also sent me to jail.
I was blackpilled since those 11-12 yo when I discovered all this shit worked like that, women true nature I mean, chads only, no love, etc. Yup, a true mentalcell.
No need to mention that Im a true never kissed hugged whatever is said and being rejected by foids also allways and even bullied by them.
