So much of social interaction involves copying the other person, NT's do this subconsciously. This means matching their facial expressions, showing open body language, changing your tone to adjust to the social situation. laughing when they laugh etc. I can't do any of these things properly, every time I try, it looks even more awkward and my timing and delivery are always off. Even when I say the right things, NT's perceive it abnormally and it doesn't have the same emotional impact, causing them to not like or respect me. On top of my gait is also strange, making me look clumsy, so people can automatically see a difference. My whole body feels strange, like it's on backwards, I am unable to adapt or change my mannerisms at all. I feel so helpless in social situations, since despite knowing I am not doing it properly, I can't change it.
