lonelysince2006
The pessimist was right all along
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She is mad at me for being sad. I told her I'm not feeling well tonight and she got mad at me and exploded. I don't want to go into too much detail, but she asked why I have to act like this, said that I'm a failure for being a crying mess and not being strong, she called me a girl for crying and "bitching," she compared me to other peoples' sons and asked why she had to end up with me and said how unlucky she is. Why did I have to be born? Why? Out of a chance of 1 in 400 trillion, I had to be born? What did I do to deserve this? I would accept it if I sinned or did something wrong for god to punish me, but I didn't do anything.
I just feel so hopeless. It feels like the universe doesn't want me to exist and is trying to get rid of me.
I just feel so hopeless. It feels like the universe doesn't want me to exist and is trying to get rid of me.