Indeed. I needed more than a year to finally and completely accept the blackpill, and i was so depressed that i almost kill myself several times and cried litteraly every night for months. It is very difficult to give up a normal and average human life, with friends, a couple and a family. It's not like the monks, who choose it ... we do not have more options: either accept reality and give up or live deluded and confused all our lives, and keep trying and failing until we die. It is so hard to renounce to women. So hard. It means fighting against the intrinsic genetical programming of each one of the cells of my body until the most basic instinct of survival and reproduction is eliminated.... and you can live like an alien that doesnt care about things that litteraly every other living being cares.
Now that i know im completely subhuman and what i can expect from life i feel like a different person tbh. I dont see foids as something achievable anymore, my "human" desires have almost disappeared and i dont feel like getting cancer and dying alone and be forgotten is something dramatically bad.
