She is leaving me behind at our old place for like a month maybe, as she moves to a different state before i join her, i get to be alone to LDAR in peace, but at the same time i have zero human contact besides her, ill try to cope harder on this site for the time being, cause being alone, overdosing on blackpills, i kinda dont want to go full schizo, but if i do, sorry mods, im trying to get to 10k to cope, i get to LDAR AT HOME, its fucking hot as shit outside during the day, fucking wasps and bucks outside trying to cut me down, and also 2 random roasties knocked on my door today, i didnt open it, but they knocked twice, i had a knife in my hand, i saw them leave threw my blinds, i dont even own a gun to shoot someone if theorictcally someone broke in, i hope that doesint happen, all i got in terms of weapons is this dull kitchen knife, im built like aushwitz so i cant defend myself physically, MOms left me alot of food to eat, hope i dont starve, cause i am hungry all the time, and i got lots of soda to drink, cause i need the carbonation and the sugar to keep me going, anyways. thansk for reading brocels
