I am 18 years old. I am Brazilian. I live in the poorest region of Brazil: the northeast.
Northeast culture is the most disgusting in Brazil. Here most of the population is naive with politics, economy and it is still the most degenerate region. Although 80% of the northeast is conservative, most people vote for leftist parties because they don't seek to understand politics or economics. They only believe what the various oligarchies that exist here say, and so they vote for them every year. Brazil was an oligarchy for most of its history, and that oligarchy continued in the northeast.I was born in a small town and raised on the outskirts. I grew up shy and introverted because my mother isolated me from the world. I was her youngest child and she gave birth to me when I was 42 years old, this influenced In her behavior, causing her to make me more and more isolated in order to protect myself. My younger sister spent most of her time with me and she made me develop complexes. She would tell me things that made me afraid of people, which made me shy. Because of these things, I spent the entire first grade of school isolated from people. I couldn't talk to anyone. I solicited more in high school, I even tried to date girls. The last one I tried something on was the one that had the most to do with me. She was average looking, we had lunch together, we had the same friends, we liked kinda similar music. I felt like I could be myself next to her. And she also had parents who had her in old age. At the end of last year I made it clear that I wanted something more with her. I gave up trying something when she said "not even if they forced me". Most of the girls talked bad about me without knowing me, they thought I was weird for being introverted and not living in social groups like them. Here in Brazil few people are introverted, even more so in the northeast. I'm poor and introverted, that's enough for most girls not to look me in the face. Last year I decided that I would lose my virginity. I signed up to casual dating sites, but no girls came through my profiles. Never kissed. I never got laid either. I feel useless for being a virgin at 18 years old. In Brazil, many people lose their virginity at 15 years of age. I wrote this post using Google translator, sorry if I made any spelling mistakes.