Just think about it. If you approach your 30s and 40s, and realize you have about a good couple decades or so left to live, you would look back on your past. Remember, you only get one chance at living and it's done.
For me, I never felt like I am even living. I feel like I just exist and have yet to do anything meaningful. For example, most of my peers did everything I didn't get to do; go outside, maintain a group of friends even beyond high school, and experience "true love" (by this I mean the raw, unconditional teen love). And perhaps most painfully, they had a good home with good parents. In sort, they had a sense of belonging, they are living life.
Compare to me, I didn't get to live. My parents had astronomically fucked up my life - possibly even permanently. They were simultaneously demanding but lazy. "Helicopter" parenting yet neglectful. Formerly physically abusive, then made said abusiveness mental and emotional. I am slow at achieving milestones at life that my peers already achieved at the right age or even younger. I have no sense of belonging (except here of course) and to be truthful, I think life out in the real world would finally do me in.
I feel like a ghost watching other people live.
TLDR - I can't live life and will die unfulfilled.
For me, I never felt like I am even living. I feel like I just exist and have yet to do anything meaningful. For example, most of my peers did everything I didn't get to do; go outside, maintain a group of friends even beyond high school, and experience "true love" (by this I mean the raw, unconditional teen love). And perhaps most painfully, they had a good home with good parents. In sort, they had a sense of belonging, they are living life.
Compare to me, I didn't get to live. My parents had astronomically fucked up my life - possibly even permanently. They were simultaneously demanding but lazy. "Helicopter" parenting yet neglectful. Formerly physically abusive, then made said abusiveness mental and emotional. I am slow at achieving milestones at life that my peers already achieved at the right age or even younger. I have no sense of belonging (except here of course) and to be truthful, I think life out in the real world would finally do me in.
I feel like a ghost watching other people live.
TLDR - I can't live life and will die unfulfilled.
