TheHungariancel
“Anything can happen in life, especially nothing.”
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I feel like I'm genuinely getting dumber and more numb each day, especially in the last few months. I've always had problems with my attention span ever since I was a kid, but now it's getting to point where not only I can't watch (or understand) longer movies I can't even read posts even here without getting bored. My memory has never been this bad.
It's especially brutal that I'm currently enrolled in a STEM related course in university which I'm failing because I literally don't understand anything that's being taught there. I had to take a lot of private classes to pass basic university level math but I still failed.
It scares me because unless I complete some kind of university level course and get a degree I'll most likely stay a wageslave woking for minimum wage in shit working conditions until the day I die.
Gooning, regular high dosage nicotine usage, social isolation and inceldom in general is destroying me inside and out, physically and spiritually, but I can't stop because these are the only things in my life that I enjoy doing and make me feel something other than utter boredom and despair.
I've obviously had attempts to change my lifestyle with no success as I lack the discipline and purpose for it. I quit nicotine and masturbation for a longer periods of time during my teenage years and it didn't help much: I was the same aimless miserable depressed pos as I am now. I'm only 22 but I already feel like a 70 year old man with dementia.
Can anyone relate?
It's especially brutal that I'm currently enrolled in a STEM related course in university which I'm failing because I literally don't understand anything that's being taught there. I had to take a lot of private classes to pass basic university level math but I still failed.
It scares me because unless I complete some kind of university level course and get a degree I'll most likely stay a wageslave woking for minimum wage in shit working conditions until the day I die.
Gooning, regular high dosage nicotine usage, social isolation and inceldom in general is destroying me inside and out, physically and spiritually, but I can't stop because these are the only things in my life that I enjoy doing and make me feel something other than utter boredom and despair.
I've obviously had attempts to change my lifestyle with no success as I lack the discipline and purpose for it. I quit nicotine and masturbation for a longer periods of time during my teenage years and it didn't help much: I was the same aimless miserable depressed pos as I am now. I'm only 22 but I already feel like a 70 year old man with dementia.
Can anyone relate?





