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if i did the right things,said the right words
No my brother, that's just a fantasy. If you could live in "groundhog day" (or week/month/year) and try over and over again, you would never get her.
...and if you did, you would be tired of her now, and she would be disrespecting you, and you would wish that you were rid of her.
"love" is an instinct designed by natural selection for this one purpose: to get you to do exactly what you're doing; to focus on just one female. But it's ultimately a false promise. It causes you to imagine happiness forevermore. But even if you were the chadiest chad, that wouldn't be possible. Love is a lie. It makes you want a thing which, if you were to attain it, doesn't actually make you happy.
My point is, you're an animal caught in a trap. You're like a slug following the trail of another slug and not knowing why. Billions of years of evolution (from long before their were humans) developed this feeling to get you on this path because, I suppose, it works in the general case. It perpetuates the species.
But it's a dead-end path for you. The instinct is only ever going to cause you misery. And you're only picking at the open wound, reopening it and shedding more blood, when you allow yourself to fixate on this fantasy, "if only I'd said the right thing."
Take a step back and recognize that it's a lie. Recognize that she's not really as great as you imagine. Heed the word of the late 20th century philosopher Dr. Dre who said, "bitches ain't shit but tricks and hoes" - men who actually get women pass on this wisdom to us: they're not really all that.
I know that's small comfort to one who can't see it for himself (that they're not all that). And I know it's a big ask to suggest you just ...ignore... this very powerful and ancient instinct. I might as well ask you to ignore gravity. But this is a black pill - it really is the only path forward for you. The alternative is to waste your life languishing in this useless grief, as you're doing in this thread.
Take it from me as an oldfag: in 10 years you'll find current pics of her on social media and she'll be old and fat and you'll reflect on how fast the time passed, and be glad you're not stuck with her old ass.