Why did God give me such capacity to love if He never gives me a girl that will love me back.. Every moment, every second I wish I was dead. It hurts so much that I can't stand it anymore. It feels like I have thousands daggers stabbed through my chest, tearing me apart from the inside. Sometimes it hurts so much that I cannot breathe.
All I want in this life is her, and I'll never have her. And it's not even her fault. She's a wonderful girl, sweet and kind. She gave me more attention than what I deserve. Can't really blame her for not loving someone like me. I don't love myself either. It's me the idiot, who exactly knew how things gonna go, and I still fell for it. I love her more than I can bear. I'm not myself anymore.
Do you guys know how it's like having to go among normies to wageslave while you're completely heartbroken and you barely hold back tears? They will ridicule and hate you if you show weakness.
I don't know what to do, there's nothing that I can do. But I cant also just not care, it's stronger than me. I'm not a robot to simply turn off my emotions. Life is too cruel.
All I want in this life is her, and I'll never have her. And it's not even her fault. She's a wonderful girl, sweet and kind. She gave me more attention than what I deserve. Can't really blame her for not loving someone like me. I don't love myself either. It's me the idiot, who exactly knew how things gonna go, and I still fell for it. I love her more than I can bear. I'm not myself anymore.
Do you guys know how it's like having to go among normies to wageslave while you're completely heartbroken and you barely hold back tears? They will ridicule and hate you if you show weakness.
I don't know what to do, there's nothing that I can do. But I cant also just not care, it's stronger than me. I'm not a robot to simply turn off my emotions. Life is too cruel.
