My cope is imagining myself as Sasuke or Kaneki because those are both fictional characters who went through large amounts of pain, torture, trauma, etc.
Going viral, then dying out, only to realize there's still a re-upload on a niche site of a humiliating moment at 17 is brutal. Because it's been over a year, but it's still out there. It's not as if I consented, I was just a dumb 17 year old who got tricked. I'm easily susceptible to things like that because of my autism.
I'm not going to try to take it down because it's 1, too difficult, and 2, there isn't much of a point.
It's funny how I was doing well mentally, relatively, then my mental health came crashing down. Reset to below zero, realizing how fucked I am.
I'm employed but still broke. Where I live, to live in a single apartment is 1.5k a month. My mom is pretty toxic. How the fuck do I move out? If it costs 6k to get a used car, how do I buy one? Even the basic shit is hard to obtain. I lose money every month by using a monthly pass for the bus and other stuff like student fees. I'm truly fucked. I hate working, but neeting would be worse because my Mom's a classic stereotype of the Shaniqua. Imagining living at home for many years is despair.
I probably have to use the forum less, if I need to moneymax to move out as soon as possible (being gone by age 21 - 23 would be nice). It's hard to do that wheh you're ugly, autistic and all you feel is pain. It's hard for me to even get out of bed.
I don't want this to be an attention seeking post, you don't have to worry about my safety or anything. I'm not suicidal, but it just goes to show how shitty life is when you're born with a poor hand.
The "real world" after you graduate High School is extremely difficult, at least for me. There's nothing else to say, because I don't want to make this post longer than it needs to be.
"I won't pull back. I will press forward. Like a centipede." - Kaneki.
Going viral, then dying out, only to realize there's still a re-upload on a niche site of a humiliating moment at 17 is brutal. Because it's been over a year, but it's still out there. It's not as if I consented, I was just a dumb 17 year old who got tricked. I'm easily susceptible to things like that because of my autism.
I'm not going to try to take it down because it's 1, too difficult, and 2, there isn't much of a point.
It's funny how I was doing well mentally, relatively, then my mental health came crashing down. Reset to below zero, realizing how fucked I am.
I'm employed but still broke. Where I live, to live in a single apartment is 1.5k a month. My mom is pretty toxic. How the fuck do I move out? If it costs 6k to get a used car, how do I buy one? Even the basic shit is hard to obtain. I lose money every month by using a monthly pass for the bus and other stuff like student fees. I'm truly fucked. I hate working, but neeting would be worse because my Mom's a classic stereotype of the Shaniqua. Imagining living at home for many years is despair.
I probably have to use the forum less, if I need to moneymax to move out as soon as possible (being gone by age 21 - 23 would be nice). It's hard to do that wheh you're ugly, autistic and all you feel is pain. It's hard for me to even get out of bed.
I don't want this to be an attention seeking post, you don't have to worry about my safety or anything. I'm not suicidal, but it just goes to show how shitty life is when you're born with a poor hand.
The "real world" after you graduate High School is extremely difficult, at least for me. There's nothing else to say, because I don't want to make this post longer than it needs to be.
"I won't pull back. I will press forward. Like a centipede." - Kaneki.
