SuicideFuel Life mogged even in fiction

[SupremeSaint]

Everywhere I try to cope, whether it be in reading books, watching any shows or movies, playing video games I get lifemogged by the MC.



I was watching TYBW and I realized something. Ichigo gets a family with a big boobed bubbly woman in Orihime. Friends with a multiple super powered shinigamis. Gets to fight and go on adventures(Adrenaline mogs)



Meanwhile in the real world I’m a shortcel whose life is (mostly) the same on a day to day basis. This issue is probably supercharged since I’m an autist who hyper-focuses on every new piece of fiction I enjoy.



I feel like this is some sort of mental illness, maybe delusion or psychosis. This seems like a very stupid and juvenile fantasy/issue but I think about it quite often


And what could I do to even try to do to fix this issue. I feel pathetic even just typing this out

 

[SupremeSaint]

Another flaw is I see all these hot anime foids, but when I look outside the average woman looks much worse(inb4 “standardcel” replies)

 

[VanGobbel]

brutal

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Everywhere I try to cope, whether it be in reading books, watching any shows or movies, playing video games I get lifemogged by the MC.

Same, which is why I struggle to enjoy any form of media these days; all it does is remind me of my shortcomings — of all that I have missed out on, and likely will never experience. Why would I want to remind myself of that? My brain immediately begins to torture me when I perceive such content, and the same thing happens whenever I venture outside and come across couples, and people who live better lives than me in general.

I don't want to see that; a preferable option is to avoid any exposure to these things, but it seems as if my mind won't let me rest regardless of what I do. This has been keeping me constantly stressed recently, and it is progressively worsening the more days that pass in desolation — the more that I miss out on, and the smaller the window of opportunity (if it even exists), is getting.

It seems like my ability to immerse myself in escapism is malfunctioning at this point.

 

[SupremeSaint]

It seems like my ability to immerse myself in escapism is malfunctioning at this point.

All I can do is accept reality

 

[Zaraj11]

I read chinese webnovels that have no romance. I think cultivation novels are good, the main story is always about the mc getting stronger and women are just meaningless side characters.

 

[ThePornographer]

The older you get, the worst it is.

You start to notice to almost every story have romance, most song are about kind of relationship, movie will always have at least one sex scene now.

 

[Hohenstaufen]

Same, which is why I struggle to enjoy any form of media these days; all it does is remind me of my shortcomings — of all that I have missed out on, and likely will never experience. Why would I want to remind myself of that? My brain immediately begins to torture me when I perceive such content, and the same thing happens whenever I venture outside and come across couples, and people who live better lives than me in general.

I don't want to see that; a preferable option is to avoid any exposure to these things, but it seems as if my mind won't let me rest regardless of what I do. This has been keeping me constantly stressed recently, and it is progressively worsening the more days that pass in desolation — the more that I miss out on, and the smaller the window of opportunity (if it even exists), is getting.

It seems like my ability to immerse myself in escapism is malfunctioning at this point.

same. I'm really fixed on height stuff, and I notice it everywhere, and it really bugs me.

 

[SupremeSaint]

You start to notice to almost every story have romance, most song are about kind of relationship

It’s extended to beyond romance, most of the time the MC tends to have a more action packed or fulfilling life

 

[SupremeSaint]

What is this state of mind called

 

[Grimm]

Everything is designed to make me kill myself.

 

[SupremeSaint]

What is this state of mind called

@AtrociousCitizen

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

What is this state of mind called

The comparative part is usually labeled as toxic comparison, though I see it more as a rational comparison that allows you to evaluate the state of your life.