life is just so shitty these days

[ack]

Things were bad after high school ended; I spent all day rotting in my room like I do now and was lonely and everything, but shit has just deteriorated so much since then to the point where I wish I could go back to those days.

I've got something fucked up with my nose or sinuses so breathing and sleeping is just uncomfortable and takes effort now; I went to the doctor and he wouldn't give me a referral to actually have my nose looked at, just le heckin' decongestant meds. And all this stuff is exacerbated by my OCD, I've been going through probably 30 tissues a day even when there isn't anything to blow and my room is filled with them.

overall my health is super fucked up; I should be in the physical prime of my life but I went on 5 minute bike ride the other day and it was fucking hell, not just from a lack of cardio training but because of kyphosis and scoliosis fucking with my ability to sit comfortably.

Whats kind of weird is that i'm actually not as suicidal as I used to be. Back when so many things were better I wanted to kill myself, and now that I actually have a desire to live, everything in my life pushing me the other way.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

View: https://youtu.be/gZZmzeiQ4mA?si=FmIeCSAGV5wj1yyb

 

[MouthofMadness]

I can't remember the last time i was happy, life is cruel

 

[DutchCel01]

I agree.

 

[ack]

View: https://youtu.be/gZZmzeiQ4mA?si=FmIeCSAGV5wj1yyb

that was good

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

that was good

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

 

[Fatimacel]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

 

[MouthofMadness]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

Keep on keeping on

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

Unfortunately true. We don't deserve this shit

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

hang in there brocel

 

[Angry_runt]

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

For me high school was the worst but then life started getting better. It's almost tolerable now.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

For me high school was the worst but then life started getting better. It's almost tolerable now.

Some aspects of it are definitely better, I just find human interaction to be tiresome. Especially when dealing with normies.