life is just so shitty these days

[ack]

Things were bad after high school ended; I spent all day rotting in my room like I do now and was lonely and everything, but shit has just deteriorated so much since then to the point where I wish I could go back to those days.

I've got something fucked up with my nose or sinuses so breathing and sleeping is just uncomfortable and takes effort now; I went to the doctor and he wouldn't give me a referral to actually have my nose looked at, just le heckin' decongestant meds. And all this stuff is exacerbated by my OCD, I've been going through probably 30 tissues a day even when there isn't anything to blow and my room is filled with them.

overall my health is super fucked up; I should be in the physical prime of my life but I went on 5 minute bike ride the other day and it was fucking hell, not just from a lack of cardio training but because of kyphosis and scoliosis fucking with my ability to sit comfortably.

Whats kind of weird is that i'm actually not as suicidal as I used to be. Back when so many things were better I wanted to kill myself, and now that I actually have a desire to live, everything in my life pushing me the other way.

 

[Icarus]

View: https://youtu.be/gZZmzeiQ4mA?si=FmIeCSAGV5wj1yyb

 

[MouthofMadness]

I can't remember the last time i was happy, life is cruel

 

[DutchCel01]

I agree.

 

[ack]

View: https://youtu.be/gZZmzeiQ4mA?si=FmIeCSAGV5wj1yyb

that was good

 

[Icarus]

that was good

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

 

[Teru Mikami]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

 

[MouthofMadness]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

Keep on keeping on

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

Unfortunately true. We don't deserve this shit

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I just wanna die, I really cannot take much more of this, I just can't.... human beings were not made to endure this

hang in there brocel

 

[Angry_runt]

Sadly I don't think it will ever get better for us. I can only see it getting worse as the years go on.

For me high school was the worst but then life started getting better. It's almost tolerable now.

 

[Icarus]

For me high school was the worst but then life started getting better. It's almost tolerable now.

Some aspects of it are definitely better, I just find human interaction to be tiresome. Especially when dealing with normies.

 

[Runt171]

Things were bad after high school ended; I spent all day rotting in my room like I do now and was lonely and everything, but shit has just deteriorated so much since then to the point where I wish I could go back to those days.

I've got something fucked up with my nose or sinuses so breathing and sleeping is just uncomfortable and takes effort now; I went to the doctor and he wouldn't give me a referral to actually have my nose looked at, just le heckin' decongestant meds. And all this stuff is exacerbated by my OCD, I've been going through probably 30 tissues a day even when there isn't anything to blow and my room is filled with them.

overall my health is super fucked up; I should be in the physical prime of my life but I went on 5 minute bike ride the other day and it was fucking hell, not just from a lack of cardio training but because of kyphosis and scoliosis fucking with my ability to sit comfortably.

Whats kind of weird is that i'm actually not as suicidal as I used to be. Back when so many things were better I wanted to kill myself, and now that I actually have a desire to live, everything in my life pushing me the other way.

Very relatable

I have trouble breathing now too
My asthma has worsened over the years from rotting and Im pretty sure I have deviated septum but The doctors Told me I don’t despite my nose being bent onto the side I cant breathe well through

I swear doctors Are fucking useless most of the time

overall my health is super fucked up; I should be in the physical prime of my life but I went on 5 minute bike ride the other day and it was fucking hell, not just from a lack of cardio training but because of kyphosis and scoliosis fucking with my ability to sit comfortably

This part is especially relatable
Ive somewhat Improved my posture in the last year or so but for my whole life I had kyphosis or some other sort of fucked up posture and I still have slight scoliosis
I would be in pain Everytime I would have to walk around and do anything and It would make everything Way more unbearable
I guess Im kind of still like that sometimes but hopefully I will be able to fix my posture fully soon

Its crazy we get one life and we cant even be in good health
Something that most people get with no work If they can actually control themselves and not bloatMax from slop

Im in the prime of my life And My body is feeble weak And unhealthy in every way
And its only going to get worse from here as we age