Everyday I get told how good I am at my job. People can't fathom why I still work here. People are always telling me about job openings and that I should apply. That they are looking for people like me and I could move up and become great. Even my supervisor thinks I'm too good and gives me giftcards and lets me come in late/take days off whenever I want. She is extremely strict with everyone else about that stuff but because I'm so good I get spoiled. It's funny how I can be so talented but can't get a decent fucking job. It's because I'm autistic. I go to an interview and stutter half my words. I can't get a good job despite being extremely hardworking and talented because the number one thing they look for in interviews is confidence.
Also I have no friends. And I"ve never had a gf or asked a girl out. I can barely order a pizza without having a panic attack. I can't even walk out the front door if my neighbor is out. She always says "hi." I can't deal with that social interaction. My anxiety is so deep that when it's raining I'm self conscious about the speed of my windershield wipers. If mine are going faster than everyone else's I think they think I'm a beta so I always make sure to adjust it to the speed of those around me. I am the epitome of beta. It's fucking over.
Also I have no friends. And I"ve never had a gf or asked a girl out. I can barely order a pizza without having a panic attack. I can't even walk out the front door if my neighbor is out. She always says "hi." I can't deal with that social interaction. My anxiety is so deep that when it's raining I'm self conscious about the speed of my windershield wipers. If mine are going faster than everyone else's I think they think I'm a beta so I always make sure to adjust it to the speed of those around me. I am the epitome of beta. It's fucking over.
