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I’ve decided. I’m going to let go of my 13 year old cousin. It’s been fun knowing her for two years, but our time has run out. Ever since her 16 year old cousin revealed my darkest secrets, it’s been over. If I keep bugging my 13 year old cousin, I might get a restraining order which will make things worse. Her parents haven’t said anything to me yet, but if I keep messaging her, then they could eventually tell me to stop. And I don’t want that. I want what’s best for my cousin, and that is to leave her alone and let her live her life. If she ever wants to get in touch with me again, then that’s no problem. I’m going to keep statusmaxxing to increase my social status. That’s the best thing I can do for myself. But if she never wants to see me again, I’m just going to have to accept that. I will cherish our past memories. I won’t cry because it ended. I will smile because it happened. She will no longer hear from me. I will no longer send her messages. The cousin she once knew will disappear into the shadows. I will protect my cousins from the outside. Like a ninja. But they’ll never see me again unless they want to. Although I do want to be able to witness her high school graduation in the future. I want to stand there like a proud cousin and watch as my cousin graduates. But I might have to watch from the shadows. So that she won’t have to see me. That’s it. This is one of the most difficult decisions I’ve made in my life. Letting go of my cousin and my oneitis at the same time. It’s a hard pill to swallow. I’m crying as I’m writing this post. My life will feel so empty without my cousin. But this is what I have to do. I want what’s best for her. Instead of wasting energy on trying to win her back, I will focus on improving my own life instead. Maybe I’ll find a girlfriend. Who knows.
