honesty the matches i get on dating apps are bellow my looks league that swipe right to everyone to feel good. i tried contacting them and i’ve been left on read or didn’t get a response. and if i am somewhere irl foids get psychically uncomfy when i am in there presence.
when i was 18 and still went to school there was a normie tier lad that got all the attention from a girl, she basically hung all over him which made him comfortable and made them close. but when he was gone she wouldn’t speak wouldn’t even talk to me. if i talked to her she seemed disinterested. the look of disinterest is something that i will always get. i am socially akward and autistic, but when i get to know someone i can be charismatic, and even when my personality is good an i can make her laugh if i start to show more interest in her than friends she distances herself from me.
if foids treat me like this already why would a cold approach work? i mean if they already get uncomfortable when i stand in there presence or show disinterest when i talk to them why would it help me if i approach them irl? to seem confident? i already WAS confident in my redpilled state and it didn’t do shit. i was already charismatic and i already made girls laugh but in nooo way they showed me interest as in normie tier guys who had a personality. they would sit next to them and shit. they seem to always take there distance from me, as in if they are scared that i will get attracted to them.
and to say that look maxing will help, back than i had a really good body and my face looked at it’s “best” because i went to sports. it didn’t help. foids still we’re uncomfy and disinterested in me.
what frustrates me is that my mind still blue pills me. that there is still the one out there. but it’s a lie, even when i was comfortable and could get a good conversation going it still didn’t help.
i am 19 years old and i believe that my young age has something to do with it. that i still haven’t experienced so much in live and that it will change in the future.
but honestly my face will always remain the same maybe even get worse over time.
and fucking hell my mind still tries to say that my personality has something to do with it. it annoys me.
i won’t give up on live because foids aren’t attracted to me. i still have dreams. when i am finally getting better mentally i want to do something cool, idk if i can make it towards my goals. but being a investigator in crime scenes being a security guard or even helping old people that have been left to rot sounds amazing to me.
when i was 18 and still went to school there was a normie tier lad that got all the attention from a girl, she basically hung all over him which made him comfortable and made them close. but when he was gone she wouldn’t speak wouldn’t even talk to me. if i talked to her she seemed disinterested. the look of disinterest is something that i will always get. i am socially akward and autistic, but when i get to know someone i can be charismatic, and even when my personality is good an i can make her laugh if i start to show more interest in her than friends she distances herself from me.
if foids treat me like this already why would a cold approach work? i mean if they already get uncomfortable when i stand in there presence or show disinterest when i talk to them why would it help me if i approach them irl? to seem confident? i already WAS confident in my redpilled state and it didn’t do shit. i was already charismatic and i already made girls laugh but in nooo way they showed me interest as in normie tier guys who had a personality. they would sit next to them and shit. they seem to always take there distance from me, as in if they are scared that i will get attracted to them.
and to say that look maxing will help, back than i had a really good body and my face looked at it’s “best” because i went to sports. it didn’t help. foids still we’re uncomfy and disinterested in me.
what frustrates me is that my mind still blue pills me. that there is still the one out there. but it’s a lie, even when i was comfortable and could get a good conversation going it still didn’t help.
i am 19 years old and i believe that my young age has something to do with it. that i still haven’t experienced so much in live and that it will change in the future.
but honestly my face will always remain the same maybe even get worse over time.
and fucking hell my mind still tries to say that my personality has something to do with it. it annoys me.
i won’t give up on live because foids aren’t attracted to me. i still have dreams. when i am finally getting better mentally i want to do something cool, idk if i can make it towards my goals. but being a investigator in crime scenes being a security guard or even helping old people that have been left to rot sounds amazing to me.
