So I mentioned a few times that one of my copes is playing handball. This one park I go to has this older guy who's really nice. But he has a daughter that would sometimes play there as well. She usually doesn't play with us since she's obviously not as good being a girl but one of the other partners wasn't as good either so she joined in with her dad as a doubles partner for fun. She's pretty young, idk her exact age but I'd guess she's still a teen anywhere from 16-19. She's really cute too. Skinny and fit with a pretty face. Anyway after the game ends it's customary to shake hands with everyone. When she gave me five, for a split second I felt her super soft hand against mine and I was placed in a state of utter euphoria for that split second. It was such an intense feeling that I will never experience again. That was days ago and I still feel the high off that initial moment. I think about it sporadically throughout the day and it makes me feel both incredibly sad and happy. Sad to know that this is the closet I'll ever get to a woman's touch. Happy because at least I got to experience it. This was literally just a touch of the hand that occurred for split second. I cannot fathom what it must be like to ascend with someone like this but I can understand why some guys who have sex are such low inhib motherfuckers. When you actually ascend with a girl like this you can die happy. You fear nothing else in life because you've already experience the greatest joy anyone can possibly experience. Where else do you go from there? Life is complete.
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