Curious0
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It was brutal. Inbetween cute pictures of my cats and family members (some even dead now) there were pictures of me at 15-16 years old. What can I say... it literally never began for me. I did not have severe acne and no scarring at that time, yet I was very very ugly.
Not even in the stereotypical way. I was not fat. I was not dirty. I just had a very provoking face.
What's more disheartening than looking ugly is looking dumb. I came to this conclusion a long time ago but this event just made me realize again. I look very, very dumb. I don't feel dumb. I don't even feel subhuman until I look at photos or the mirror.
Now I'm uglier than I was at 16 since severe acne completely fucked up my skin. I'm 18 and my face is still bloated like a baby.
At least one good realization that's the result of this is that I know for a fact that I don't have one single flaw that prevents me from being likeable like some incels claim a la "if only I had a smaller nose". This cope never even erupted in my case since I always knew it was a combination of all features. Some people told me if I fixed my acne I would have a chance. This is far from the truth. I was also extremely ugly without acne scars. To this day I hate my eyes, nose, body more than having to deal with pimples.
My only motivation to earn a lot of money is to eventually be able to afford several plastic surgeries.
Not even in the stereotypical way. I was not fat. I was not dirty. I just had a very provoking face.
What's more disheartening than looking ugly is looking dumb. I came to this conclusion a long time ago but this event just made me realize again. I look very, very dumb. I don't feel dumb. I don't even feel subhuman until I look at photos or the mirror.
Now I'm uglier than I was at 16 since severe acne completely fucked up my skin. I'm 18 and my face is still bloated like a baby.
At least one good realization that's the result of this is that I know for a fact that I don't have one single flaw that prevents me from being likeable like some incels claim a la "if only I had a smaller nose". This cope never even erupted in my case since I always knew it was a combination of all features. Some people told me if I fixed my acne I would have a chance. This is far from the truth. I was also extremely ugly without acne scars. To this day I hate my eyes, nose, body more than having to deal with pimples.
My only motivation to earn a lot of money is to eventually be able to afford several plastic surgeries.