Venting ive hit rock bottom

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I never felt this shitt in a long fucking time

i feel like absolute shit

im an ugly khhv incel
i hate my job
i have zero education
i crashed my car
my appartment looks like a disgusting shithole
i ldar all day
i have no discipline i always want to endulge
in music making as cope
but i dont get shit done
i let myself down at every step i take
i have no friends
and even with other incels i cant really talk
cause im too fucking autistic

i hate myself
i hate my personality , my autism
i hate my weak , pathetic body
i hate my genetics
i have not a even a single shimmer of hope in
my fucked up life
i cant even make good threads on here anymore
all i have is suifuel
all day every day
my mind is fucking broken

i have bad genetics
but the things i have done to my brain and
my personality are my fault

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK

AND STILL IM NOT ABLE TO KILL MYSELF
im a disposable male
im a fucking statistic
just observing life from far away
in my disgusting bubble of self hatred

whwhwhwwhwhww
thats it
rock bottom
ground zero
what am i gonna do
i dont know

 

[lightskin2thousand0]

we love u fren

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

we love u fren

 

[Antisocialloner]

Condolences.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Condolences.

elab

 

[Saber]

too relatable, even the car crash part (well mine was last year)

 

[Antisocialloner]

elab

Feel bad for your situation. I'm going through hell too.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

too relatable, even the car crash part (well mine was last year)

fuck man
when i crashed my car i didnt even flinch tbh
im used to getting beaten down by Life
and when i slipped on icy road
i just wished i would die in the crash
but not a single scratch
only the car was totaled

 

[Deleted member 23712]

Your conscience is telling you not to rope because you haven’t pERformed well enough yet

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Feel bad for your situation. I'm going through hell too.

i want to turn that shit into lemonade but im so fucking weak

Your conscience is telling you not to rope because you haven’t pERformed well enough yet

i will never go ER tbh
its not their fault
just kill random people theory is bullshit

 

[Saber]

fuck man
when i crashed my car i didnt even flinch tbh
im used to getting beaten down by Life
and when i slipped on icy road
i just wished i would die in the crash
but not a single scratch
only the car was totaled

pretty much the same, it was the 1st day of uni in the new semester on february and the roads were super slippery, I ended up running late since i got out of bed too late so I had to shovel the driveway, I ended up speeding a bit too much to make up for being late and ended up slipping and hitting the border of the road, gladly no other cars were around so I just picked up my bumper and other parts, called mom and drove home (the engine worked, just the front got totalled)

 

[Dionysus]

I might read this later but just know man we are all in this together

 

[Ropemaxx]

Brutal bro but one thing i've learned in life..
there is no rock bottom. literally
it can ALWAYS get worse, and it most likely will

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Brutal bro but one thing i've learned in life..
there is no rock bottom. literally
it can ALWAYS get worse, and it most likely will

once you are down
Life will just keep kicking you in the face with a boot

 

[Ropemaxx]

once you are down
Life will just keep kicking you in the face with a boot

Yeah. Always when i thought life couldnt get worse, i had another huge downfall. It literally never stops. There is no wins inbetween either.

 

[metabuxx]

For me its like -
Rock bottom
10 miles of crap and dog shit
Me

Living my subhuman life is worse than hitting rock bottom

 

[Deleted member 15737]

At least you have a good avi, not as good as mine but I’d say it’s in the top 50.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

At least you have a good avi, not as good as mine but I’d say it’s in the top 50.

haha lol
Best avi 2019 mog again
how will i ever compare

 

[carticel]

I love u man

 

[Deleted member 22572]

I'm at the lowest point in my life rn and everything's only been getting worse and worse since I was 14

 

[LastGerman]

i crashed my car

I do not even have a driver licence and I never had my own car of course and I am 25. It is beyond over at this point.

pretty much the same, it was the 1st day of uni in the new semester on february and the roads were super slippery, I ended up running late since i got out of bed too late so I had to shovel the driveway, I ended up speeding a bit too much to make up for being late and ended up slipping and hitting the border of the road, gladly no other cars were around so I just picked up my bumper and other parts, called mom and drove home (the engine worked, just the front got totalled)

Yet another one who brags about driving. @rightfulcel it never ends.

 

[FinnCel]

Don't worry, it will get much worse

 

[Deleted member 18214]

Yet another one who brags about driving. @rightfulcel it never ends.

Tbh crashing your car is bad and I can have sympathy for it because you are now being mogged by females. But there was no reason for the dude to say he "drove home". Its pure bragging and they know it.

 

[Saber]

Yet another one who brags about driving. @rightfulcel it never ends.

If it makes you feel better I shouldnt have a license either, I failed 3 times and since my country is corrupt on the 4th try paid off the instructor to be lenient so I passed

 

[Deleted member 4159]

my appartment looks like a disgusting shithole
i ldar all day

Feels bro

I was gonna tag Last German, but he got here before I could.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Feels bro

I was gonna tag Last German, but he got here before I could.

i just cleaned up today tbh

 

[Deleted member 4159]

i just cleaned up today tbh

I need to clean up, working on it though

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I need to clean up, working on it though

just do it theory

 

[Deleted member 4159]

just do it theory

I've found that when I make a list of things to do, the sheer number overwhelms me. If I just "let go", I tend to accomplish things a lot easier.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I've found that when I make a list of things to do, the sheer number overwhelms me. If I just "let go", I tend to accomplish things a lot easier.

step by step tbh
start small or else it will be too much

 

[LastGerman]

If it makes you feel better I shouldnt have a license either, I failed 3 times and since my country is corrupt on the 4th try paid off the instructor to be lenient so I passed

While females can drive without any effort at all. I wish Germany would be corrupted in that way, so I could jsut buy myself a driver licence. Seriously, going to driving school as a grown up man is absolutely emasculating and it makes no sense.