I've considered chemical castration to remove my sexual desires. However, whenever I think about it I realize that a lack of sexual desires wouldn't make my life better. I'd still feel a miserable sense of jealousy seeing those look better than me. I'd still feel awful being a social reject mocked for his looks. Unfortunately, the only escape from my misery is not existing at all. Eventually I'll have to give in if I don't want to feel miserable. Hopefully I manage to acquire the guts to do what I have to.
