Even in adolescence and childhood my life was horrible, I don't have any good moments in life and it's brutal, the black pill destroyed me completely and it's depressing to see life passing before your eyes and nothing happens, nothing I do is enough, nothing improves. I don't want to grow old, it will be terrible, I'm desperate, I'll never have a family and it's depressing to know that many teenagers and young people have sex and I'm not unwanted by anyone, even family members. There's not much to do but wait for death and leave. I'm too depressed to exercise, the sun is also too hot, there comes a point when I get tired, I'm unwell and weak.
